"Janina." I called "Uhm?" she replied.
"The three of us will t-talk after class and I'm quite nervous" sambit ko.
"Sana maayos ninyo, nakakasawa rin ang ganyang sitwasyos niyo. Sila masaya samantalang ikaw ay nasasaktan ng dahil sa tinatago mong damdamin, I honestly don't know how you endure the pain."
I just nod my head and pay attention to class. A minute after, "Don't be nervous" she added then a smile appears on my lips.
...
I had received a message from Chance – we will talk at Fay house since her house is empty. I am standing in front of the gate and it seems that my feet are glued on the ground. I entered the house only to see both of them. They must have waiting for me.
"Am I late?" I broke the deafening silence. "No. You just come on time." Chance replied
The tingling sensation, racing heart, and the butterflies in my stomach are all dead now – I used to feel those whenever he's around.
I sat on the couch across them before meeting their gaze. "So?" I humbly ask. "Are you going to keep silent? I thought were going to talk?" I added. I know the reason why they have called me; I mean there's no other reason for them to called me except the problem between us. I just want them to start but no one seems ready to start. I compose myself and gather all my courage to start the conversation, but Fay started.
"Chance, I want to talk to Stell privately."
"Sure, just text me" Chance replied.
"S-stell, I want you to listen to me first okay?" she asks. "okay?" she reiterated.
"Uhm" I replied. "Stell, I've started to understand what you mean. That day...when we talk I realize how hard it is not being able to share your pain and sadness with anyone when you have me...your friend." she says while holding hands...I feel her sincerity and concern. "I really don't want to lose a friend that's why I want to talk to you – also I am sorry about Chance." Saying all those are hard for her and yet she still chose to explain and try to work things out between us and for me that means she's trying to save our friendship.
"No...it's my fault for liking him" I replied.
"No...it's not." She replied and after a couple of minutes Chance entered.
"I'll speak first...Yes, I like you Chance for seven years now I guess. And yes, it hurts knowing that you can't reciprocate my feelings...its actually hard and painful for me but it happens. (I laugh), I did love you more than friends, but I don't know if I still do today...I really don't know, am actually confuse. I mean I wanted to let you know that I am actually in the process of moving on." I explain. I actually started to move on the day Chance confess that he likes my friend but it just recently that I accepted the thought of moving on. Moving on isn't just simply moving on – you have to accept what it takes for you to move on. Yes, you may want to move on, but you are not helping yourself to move on because you are still holding onto that person. Moving on is not an overnight process – it takes courage and faith.
"That's good to hear. Am actually glad that someone like you would like me" ani Chance
"Why? You're a good man!"
"Yeah! It's actually better to stay as friends. So, we are still friends right?" Ani Chance
That hurts! "Y-yeah! Its indeed better to stay as friends. How 'bout the two of you? are you both dating?" I ask. Am not martyr, just want to know, HAHA!
"Uhm! That's why we want to talk to you." ani Fay
"I am glad! You have my support." I sincerely happy for them. This pain will be over soon; the star will shine again. "Let's celebrate?" I suggest. (Gonna celebrate my defeat, HAHAHA!)
...
"I won't drink alcohol, just the two of you! I am fine with juice." I said when my phone vibrates.
Message from Asher
"Where are you?"
"At Fay house, why?" I replied
He did not reply back; he must be busy. The three of us look at door when the doorbell rang. "My Mom and Dad are out of town." Ani Fay
"Sino yun?" I ask.
"No idea" she replied and walk towards the door.
"Hey!" Asher? While he's walking towards me; my hearts start to beat so fast and the butterflies in my stomach are alive again. (I used to feel this way!)
"What are you doing here?" I ask nervously.
"You told me that we are going to talk so here I am" the answer had been terribly dry.
"A-ah...Sorry" shit! I don't know what to say. "Why don't you join us?" Ani Fay. Asher slowly nod his head and sat next to me.
"You okay? You are constantly fidgeting on your chair." He whispered to me.
What the hell? I didn't speak and just send him a death glare. "Are you feel uncomfortable?"
I didn't pay attention to him when he speaks again "Excuse us" ani Asher them he reaches for my wrist and clamp his finger on it and leave the house together.
