lasting love ☾ (Not Alone Sequel) o2l fanfiction

chapter 9

we had to do it.

i gathered all of the boys.

connor walked in and we all sat down.

he sat close to me, as if he were a puppy not wanting to be separated from its mother.

sam gave me a glare.

i rolled my eyes at him.

"so i have to tell all of you something that is very important to me, so i just thought you should know."

he took a breather.

"i am gay."

some of the boys eyes widened, some didn't.

"your sexuality doesn't matter con, if your happy, then we're happy." jc says.

all the boys nods in agreement.

he tries to smile, somewhat.

he looks hurt almost, as if he's dying to tell someone else.

it reminds me of andrew. i won't go into much detail about my old friend, maybe another time.

we all gave him a hug and went back to what we were doing.

i sensed that he felt better because of telling them, but his face didnt show it. 

i went up to our room, sam still downstairs with the boys.

i pulled out my laptop, the screen illuminating my face.

i scrolled through tumblr, seeing all of the cute outfits that i cant afford. 

i wandered around the room, going in circles like a lost puppy.

a thought came into my head.

i grabbed my wallet and camera, running down the stairs.

"sam i have a surprise. lets go." 

i grab his hand and drag him into my car.

i started driving, turning up the stereo. 

sam's hand resting on my thigh, tapping on my skin to the beat of the music.

we finally reach the cliff.

it was one of the most beautiful places in the world.

we got out of the car.

i stand there, taking snapchats and putting them on my story.

sam comes behind me and wraps his arms around me.

i take more "professional" pictures with my camera and a few of sam making really cute silly faces. 

we sit on the hood of the car looking over the city.

"no wonder i moved out here, its so beautiful." i say.

sam arms pull tighter around me, making feel comforted.

we stay in the same spot until the sun goes down, turning dark. 

i drove to panera bread so we could get some dinner. 

i got mac n' cheese and coffee while sam got a sandwich and lemonade.

after we ate, we walked next door to whole foods.

sam and i walked down the water aisle.

i finally found the blk. mineral water.

i bought a case of it, since i had tried it before.

we encountered a couple fans.

we signed their phone cases and took a couple pictures with them.

i loved seeing fans because it made me happy that i can make them happy with silly videos.

we purchased our items and left the store. 

tomorrow we were going to go to a club by ourselves, just sam and i.

when we got home, sam ran off with ricky to play pokemon.

i went upstairs and went on my laptop.

i grabbed my head phones and plugged them in. 

i watched a couple hours of pewdiepie's jumpscare videos which had me dying of laughter. 

i unplugged to get a drink.

i carefully walked downstairs since the lights were all off.

i grabbed a water and headed back up.

when i passed kian's room, i heard a noise.

i placed my water in my room and walked over.

i gently pushed kian's door open. 

it was very dark, no source of light on.

"kian?"

his head moved. 

i went and turned the light on.

"beth..there's something wrong." tears choked him.

i went over to him and just held him, his head buried in my chest.

i could feel the tension and pain in the room.

he looked up at me, his eyes full of tears waiting to spill out.

i wiped a tear from his cheek

"beth, i'm not okay. i haven't been in so long. since andrea broke up with me a couple months ago, even before that. i haven't been happy in so long.."

it saddened me that one of my best friends was so sad.

i've been there. i know how it feels to feel so alone.

i held his wrist lightly, running my thumb over the raised scars. he has been hurting for so long that he had to hurt himself. 

i have self harmed myself, sometimes i still do, but he needs to know that we can do this.

"its okay kian, we can get through this, i promise everything is going to be okay." 

"no beth, i cant. i cant keep living like this."

i started to cry.

he sucked in a breath, ready to speak.

"im going to a hospital so they can help me get better."