Shine a Light on Me

Chapter Three

I start dinner knowing my mom will expect me to have something ready when they get home. I decide to put a roast and vegetables in, it'll have time to cook. I don't seeing them arriving home until 10 or 11. I lounge in the living room and try to watch Matlock but I can't concentrate. I'm filled with anxiety about our big move. I worry about what will happen when my splits up with Jimmy. It's not a possibility it's an inevitability. He'll get sober and leave her or she'll cheat and leave him. I know it. As soon as she finds someone she thinks can offer her something better she'll leave him, she'll hurt him. And until that happens the bitch will just sabotage his every attempt to get sober. I fucking hate her.

I feel my face heat up with rage. I can't believe she's so heartless, how did I come from her? I would never do that to Jimmy. Then it hits me, I'm more worried about what effect she'll have on him then what effect this move will have on me. I feel ashamed, and scared. I can't get him out my head, why am I lusting after my Mom's drunk boyfriend. I disgust myself. Right when I think things couldn't get worse, they do. I hear the car pull into the driveway. I hope my mom's stoping in to change before they go out, I can't handle an entire evening with the two them right now.

It's only 8 o'clock. The door open and my mom enters carrying familiar brown bags. They went to the liquor store, they know my mom by name there. Hell, they've refused to sale her alcohol so many times. They don't even call the police when she gets rowdy,they just have me come pick her up. She's already nipped in to whatever they bought, she's smiling and all giggles.

"Jimmy s-s-ugg-guested we stay in tonight and spend sometime together." She smiles as she drops her purchases on the coffee table. I tell her I have dinner in oven but it'll be a few hours, I didn't expect them home so early.

"Your such a good girl." Jimmy says as he sits down next to me. I can smell the alcohol on him. He positions himself in the middle of couch, my mom goes out to the kitchen.

"So what did you do all day while we're gone? Did you miss me?" He says the latter part in low suggestive whisper.

"I packed." I reply without turning away from the tv. My mom comes back in with glasses.

"Do you want a drink,baby?" She chirps, in a sing song voice. I assume she's talking to Jimmy and continue to stare blankly at the tv. Then she reaches across him and nudges me.

"Hey! Do you want a drink!?!" She asks again in that nauseating tone.

"Sure." I reply. I could use one, my minds racing. I'm unsure of some many things, my life seems more like a shitty dream then reality right now.

She pours me a glass of ice tea and adds some vodka. I start to nurse it.

"I-I'm so happppppy! We're all get along so well! Nadia's even loosening up! You never have drink with Mama, do you?" She says as she mixes two more drinks.

I laugh, she's lovey Dovey drunk, that comes right before black out drunk. Soon she'll be passed out and then I can escape. Jimmy stretches out his arms, he puts one around each of us. I get up to check the roast. I quickly pour myself another drink and go to the kitchen. I take my time plating the roast and veg. I finish my second drink and take the plates. I set one down in front of my mother. She's laying against the arm of couch with her eyes half shut. She slurs thank you but doesn't move to touch it.

I set the other in front of Jimmy.
Finally I set down with my own plate. I begin to eat.

"Let me pour you another." He takes my glass and fills it with a 50/50 mix of vodka and iced tea.

I take a swig, it burns going down but I can feel a warmth spread through out my entire body. I'm getting buzzed. I pick at my dinner and then relax back into the couch. I feel all my cares slip away as we watch Eddie Murphy do stand up. I nurse my drink and laugh, he's so funny. I hear my mother snoring, she's passed out cold. It doesn't bother me like it usually would. Jimmy puts his arm around me, I don't mind he's warm. He pulls me over to him, I'm now in the crock of his arm, we're re sitting side to side. I look over at him, he smiles at me. I can't help but smile back.

"Starting to feel it?" He laughs. I nod my head still smiling.

He raises his other hand and puts it on my cheek. He turn my head back to look at him gently, I think he's going to kiss me. We make eye contact for a few moment, we both just drunkly grin. Then he lightly guide my head to his chest. He smells so masculine, it exquisite . A mixture of whiskey, tobacco and a musk I can't identify. I rub my cheek against his silky shirt without thinking. He begins to rub my side with long lazy strokes. His large hand caresses me from my hip to my right underneath my breast. It feels good, I lay my arm across his body and scoot closer. He lean forward, I worry he's upset but then he reach down and pulls my legs up a crossed his lap. He pulls me back to him. I'm now on my side with my arm behind his head and the other across his chest. It feels nice to be this close to man.

I relax and he goes back to stroking my side. We lay like this watching tv for what feels like a long while. I start to doze a little.

"You have to stay awake and keep my company." He whispers. I giggle in to his chest. He squeezes my hip and then goes back to caressing me. This time his hand doesn't stop beneath my breast.

He cups the bottom of breast and says "I was right. Your not wearing a bra....These gave you away." His thumb stroking my hard nipple.

I let out a little moan, the alcohol has lowered my inhibitions. I just give in to my feels for him. I can feel him stir against my thigh. I wiggle a bit to tease him.

"Naughty girl." He purrs in to my ear. His other hand begins to stroke my thigh, gradually moving higher. I cuddle closer as he reaches my inner thigh. His hand lingers there.

I feel myself getting wet. He starts gently rubbing my lips through my panties. I moan softy in to his ear. His fingers slip beneath my panties, he continues to tease me, just gently caressing my pussy. I gasp at the feeling of his calloused fingers against my delicate skin. I buck my hips slightly wanting more contact. Jimmy places a finger on my clit and gently strokes it.

"Good girl. Are you gonna cum for Daddy?" I move my hips begging for him to go faster.

"Answer me." He says with a soft smile.

"Yes. " I whimper.

"Yes what?" He says quicken his strokes.

"Yes, Daddy." I pant. I'm so close to cumming, I bite my lip. I grab his shirt as climax.

"Mmmmm that's it. Cum for me, baby."

I lay against his chest and catch my breath. He gently strokes hair. I reposition myself so my head is on his lap. He cover me up with his jacket and goes back to petting me softly. My eyes feel heavy, I drift off to sleep.