{Book two} So This Is Love

Chapter 10- Boys afternoon gathering

Dyl((TW⚠️!!Slight mention of assumed Domestic Violence!!⚠️))
I haven't slept in a almost a week. That's how long its been since Roman and I had stopped talking. Sure, I'm already not the best with sleep schedules but I don't think my body can take much more of this. It can't handel no sleep for this long. It can't handel barley eating anything. It can't handel all this isolation I'm putting myself through. It can't..I can't handel no Roman..

The thing about Roman in this situation is after our fight he went to Remus' dorm where Remus' cousin, Janus, was staying at. According to Remus, Janus had his hands all over Roman and he was enjoying it! Then again it's Remus who told me this. So it could've just been a comforting hug. But this is also Remus who told me this so they could've been fucking!

No. There's no way they were fucking. Roman..Roman wouldn't do something like that right after a fight..unless.
Did he know it would make me upset? Did he know I didn't like him hanging out with Janus? No. I never told him anything about not liking Janus.

Why does it matter? Because I like him! Yes. If you somehow didn't already fucking know! I. Like. Roman. Wishmore. End of discussion! Wait, no, come back! I need someone to talk too!
It's just a lot to process and I can't even ask Roman. If I ask Remus he probably won't tell me straight up..I guess I could ask Janus...Ugh. Or Remy! They went to his apartment to hang out before Roman went to work!

I poke my head out of my bedroom door into the living room. Emile was sitting on the couch with hot cocoa in hand and his glasses off, wiping at his tears.
"Are you watching Adventure Time?" I ask, making my roommate sniffle and look over at me, nodding.
"Yeah" he chuckled. "Did you need something Virg?" I chew on the inside of my cheek while nodding.
"Are you still hanging out with Remy later today?"

Emile thinks for a bit. "Mhm! Why do ya ask?" I dig my teeth gently into my bottom lip before answering.
"I waaas- just wondering if I could tag along maybe? If not that's totally okay, I don't wanna ruin a date or anything-" Emile smiles brightly. Probably happy I was finally interacting with people.
"Of course! Rem's might decide to bring some friends too so it's all good!" I exhale a soft breath of relief that he didn't get upset and that I'll actually be able to ask Remy about Roman and Janus.

"Awesome- so, when're you going to meet up with him?" I ask, swinging back and forth on my heels a bit while he stares at his BMO watch. "In about half an hour? I wanna finish a couple more episodes first!" I give him an awkward thumbs up and nod at him.
"Alrighty! Thanks again!" He smiles.
"Of course! I'll tell you when it's time to go!" I nod again and go back into my room, shutting the door.

Great. Now I'm gonna have to change and talk with people. I didn't think this through. I go to my dresser and grab some ripped dark grey jeans and a Crown The Empire shirt. I slip on one of my TØP hoodies and clip a chain on my jeans just to be edgy before pulling on some work boots and flopping onto my beanbag. I take out my phone and try to relax my mind by playing Among Us.

It didn't work. I shortly find myself focused on what Remy's response'll be If he even answers. I don't even know if Janus liked Ro. Remus said Janus was all over him though..Gods, what did he mean by that?! Damn it Remus! I know Remy'll be honest with me but I'm still anxious..when am I not though?

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Emile looked over at me. "Virgil? You okay?" I looked back over at him, my hair still a mess, though I had brushed it 3 times, as I ran a hand through it. My bangs quickly fell back into their normal place while I nod in response to my roommate. "Ye-Yeah.."
"You know you didn't have to come if you didn't want to! I'm not forcing to come with." He giggled and I nodded again, insisting that I wanted to tag alone all my own.