Hi guys!
I tried to make this chapter a tad bit longer than usual!
So over the weekend I got a new computer (bc the old ones mother board broke) and I had to restore my phone to factory settings -.- yeah that was fun...
OH ALSO THIS CHAPTER IS DEDICATED TO MY BESTFRIEND/WRITING PARTNER/YAOI LOVER/LOSER BC ITS HER BIRTHDAY!!!! SOOO HAPPY BIRTHDAY CAS!!!! If you could pease go on her story 'Feeling Numb' and comment happy birthday, she'd be so happy!!!:)
Anyways I hope you like this chapter!:)
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"Y-you'll what?," I say looking into Carlos's eyes. Does he really mean that?
"I said I'll fight for you Cecil. No one should be treated like that!" Carlos removes his hands from mine and I feel suddenly sad from the lack of warmth.
"But why would you do that for me? We just met," I wanted him to put his hands back on mine and hold them tight. He was looking out the window and not meeting my eyes.
"Because.... I'm not really sure why. It just feels right," he turns his attention back to me and I feel my heart flip.
"Carlos, I-"
"Order number thirty-three!" I'm cut off by the waitress yelling our number at the front counter.
Carlos looks at the counter and back at me. His face is red from blush and I can tell he is embarrassed of what he said.
"I'd better go get that," he smiles and walks away.
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I eat my food and then leave, without saying another word to Carlos. If I had stayed there I probably would've felt the urge to attack him with my lips. I don't think I would be able I control that urge.
I get home and walk through the kitchen. The placemats are still laying in the same place untouched and now have a thin layer of dust over them. I run upstairs before I start thinking too hard about my family.
I'm sitting on my bed with my head in my hands and listening to Keaton Henson, when I hear my phone ring.
"Hello?" I answer confusedly.
"Cecil, it's Earl, can you come over right now?" His voice is urgent and also.... nervous?
"Sure, I'll be over in a bit" I hang up the phone and walk over to my window. The stars are out and the moon is shining high in the sky. It's beautiful.
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I walk to Earl's house which is all the way across town. It's a good thing that this place is small.
I knock on the door and am almost immediately greeted by Earl.
"Hey cec," he says with a smile.
"Hey what's wrong? You sounded really weird on the phone," I say rubbing the back of my neck.
"Oh! Umm nothing! C'mon lets just go up stairs!" He says pulling me by my wrist into his room.
His room is spotless and everything has a place. We sit on his bed and he takes my hands in his. He looks me in the eyes and immediately looks away. He closes his eyes and begins to talk again.
"So I actually did call you for a reason and I'm not even sure that I should have done it. But, well, here it goes... CECIL I LOVE YOU!" He lifts his head and peaks at me through one open eye, expecting an answer.
I don't give one.
I had never ever thought of Earl in that way before. I'm still speechless as Earl stares at me with wide, curious eyes. I guess he takes my silence as a good thing, because he leans over and kisses me.
The kiss is wet and warm and a swirl of tongues. I kiss back because it's easier to do it then to not.
He pushes my back onto the bed so that I'm laying down and nuzzles his head between my neck. My eyes flutter shut as he sucks and nips lightly underneath my ear, just enough to leave a mark the next morning.
His lips find their way back to mine and I moan into the kiss. His lips make a small smile as I feel his hand inch closer and closer to a certain part of my body. I've been so lonely lately... A little action couldn't hurt right?
He undoes my belt and slides his hand into my pants, my back arches as his hand hovers over my penis. I let out a small sigh, "Carlos."
I feel him stiffen as soon as the name comes out of my mouth and my eyes fly open. I meet Earl's eyes. Tears are streaming down his face as he looks down at me.
"Why is he so special to you, Cecil?" I can hear all the raw hurt in his voice.
"I-I don't know, Earl. I honestly don't know," I stutter and try to find the right words to say, "I'm sorry, Earl... I just... can't do this."
Earl slides off from on top of me and I slowly get off the bed. I can hear Earl's sniffles and cries from behind me.
I leave Earl's house and my head is swimming. I only know one thing right now.
I have to find Carlos.
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I'm kinda conflicted on if I love it or hate it :/
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Que sera sera,
Roza
