The Diary Of My Life

4 July 2014

7/4/2014

Update on Hazel: Still asleep

Heyo there, it's been 1 or 2 months? I don't know what happened but Mitch has been ignoring me most of the time now. Here's an example:

Mitch was typing on his phone. Ugh. Again. "Mitch, why don't you ta-" "Hey umm, baby. I have to meet some friends at the bar. I would be home at 11pm or later, sorry," he cut me off. He fucking cut me off. "MITCH! DO YOU NOT REALIZE THAT I'M ALWAYS IGNORED BY YOU?" I screamed. "Stop being so whiny, it's just... one last time," he shook his head. "EVERY TIME YOU SAY ONE LAST TIME, YOU ALWAYS... UGH," I exclaimed, ugh, you may feel like I'm too clingy but, it's irritating, when your boyfriend 1 out of 10 times never respond to me? And it's not YouTube or his YouTuber friends, it's another person, and I don't even know who, I asked but he never told me, saying it's "someone not important". If they are not important, then why is he spending so much time on them?
End of example

So yah, that happens everyday. "Alex! I'm going out, okay?" Mitch shouted. "Sure," I mumbled. Once I heard the door close, I rushed downstairs so I could close all the windows and turn on all the air-conditioners. Bzzt. It was Mitch's phone, oh how cute, he left his phone unlocked again. I grabbed his phone, feeling a bit guilty for snooping at his phone, but that feeling was quickly washed away when I saw the message. "Hey baby, r u comin or not? We r all waiting". Fanny. That's her name, that's the name of Mitch's 'not important' person. I scrolled up the messages only finding more evidence of Mitch's person. "Hey! Come over my house tonight, okay? We can watch some movies together too! Like, hmmm... Oh! How 'bout Frozen?" -Fanny.

"Hai baby, come over to the nightclub okay? I'll be waiting~" -Fanny

Ugh. Well. I heard the door creak open and Mitch walked back in. "Hey, Alex! Have you seen my ph- Oh! Thanks!" He grabbed his phone out of my hands and rushed back out the door. Tears welled up in my eyes when the door slammed close again, for the millionth time. Oh wait. Dammit. I'm writing in first person again. Whatever, I'll just continue like that, that freaking situation is literally playing over and over again in my head, all the words that he said and what I did was just playing in my mind and not stopping. I got back up and closed the windows and on-ed the air conditioners and offed all the lights and turned on my laptop and set up Netflix.

Now, the scene stops from there. He didn't come back until 2pm the next day. He had bloodshot eyes and messy hair, not limping so he didn't do 'it' with her. I would flip him off if he did. Bloodshot maybe not enough sleep I had guessed but I just said hello when he came back, keeping my secret safe and sound until later, when I decide to take my life. It's all over for me, he destroyed my world. I swear not a single person in the world can understand my feelings because they never had a horrible childhood like me and shitty parents and then getting a great life and then getting a boyfriend when their parents told them that they were ugly, useless, waste of air and space, a mistake, then having her boyfriend to cheat on her without her noticing EVEN THOUGH it was really obvious that he was cheating and not even trying to cover it up. No shame is what he doesn't have. Wait, I forgot another part, they didn't have a friend they just met thrown into a coma by a fucking truck driver that didn't use his eyes that God gave him, they probably never experience anything like that.

My rant is done. Thank you for listening. I'll just go on with my life as a shitty person living a broken life in a broken way where she just couldn't.
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Hai there friends. This... Sorry for not updating i had school and a poop ton of homework that i dont even know then theres second language that i have no idea how to even and i dont know why im not exempted for second language because it sucks so much and then i just started history literature drama chemistry biology physics geography and i absolutely hate literature and history because it is boring as fuck this entire rant or sorry speech has absolutely no commas periods whatsoever so idk how u guys r gonna read this oh god i started using short forms halp me.

Okay im done here. Sorry for no update, busy in school. News: I'm gonna start a Sidemen fanfic and DR fanfic too. The DR fanfic is probably gonna take a while to be uploaded cause all the planning and getting Jae to do my animation of dead people. All chapters of DR fanfic would be pre written so the English there would be more edited and proper. And the story also has to be very detailed so long time is needed. Te Sidemen fanfic would be the last to be uploaded cause i still have that one Vikkstar123 fanfic that is on hold so yah. I hope u have a great day.
~helpidkausername