Stir | Styles

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Honestly I wish I could skip to the middle of this book bc that's where i have all my ideas but I'll get through this.
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Like any other day, there's no one home when I get inside. My day was thrilling besides arguing with Harry. Sometimes I just want to give into him because his persistence is exhausting. Somewhere deep in my gut I know that he's not going to give up.

I hang my coat on the coat rack and place my boots on the mat. My house is so organized, it's overwhelming. Everything has a spot and I just want to kick it all and mess up everything. This is why I have just a small bearable patience with Harry, he gives me a sense of messiness that I so desperately need in my life.

It's 10 o'clock at night and I'm overthinking things again. I decide to take a bubble bath, soaking in lavender scented scrubbing gel. The smell is intoxicatingly soothing and stress free. I run the bath water and while it's slowly rising I turn on my play list to Shawn Mendes - Give me love. For some reason I like his version better than the original. I strip from my clothing to lay in the peaceful bath.

And that I'll fight my corner,
Maybe tonight I'll call ya,
After my blood turns into alcohol,
No, I just wanna hold ya.

My mind takes on his beautiful voice and these powerful lyrics. It seems that I'm not listening to a song, I'm living it. I'm living a lie. I always say that I don't need anyone to hold me or keep me company or ask me how my days been but I do I need that. Most of the time I feel empty.

Give a little time to me or burn this out,
We'll play hide and seek to turn this around,
All I want is the taste that your lips allow,
My, my, my, my, oh give me love,

Tears roll down my cheeks as I think of how boring and empty my life is. I sink into the water as the 8 minute rock song continues to play. It speaks to me on a spiritual level.

When it's over I raise my body up and wrap my towel around my medium sized body. The mirror is foggy and my body is blurry. I walk toward my room and lock the door just in case Devin comes home. I put my strawberry lotion on my body. It makes me feel so soft. After I slip on short shorts and a tank top I climb into bed.

I look over to the clock and its 11:11 o'clock and I'm now wishing he was here to hold me. I huff and turn away from the clock to drift off into a sleep coma induced sleep.

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I hear a faint tapping on my balcony door. I turn slowly just in case someone's trying to get in. It's not hard to get up there. It's stairs attached to the balcony. The tapping is getting louder I start to panick. I slide to the floor quietly and crawl behind the curtain of the balcony door to see who it is. Harry ?!

I stand quickly and walk to the light switch. When I get to the door harrys' eyes are wide and dark.

"Harry, why are you here?" I yell-whisper.

"Bell, open this door or so help me god!" His voice is low and menacing. There's something in his eyes I can't decipher.

"No Harry, you shouldn't be here!" Yes I said I wanted him to be with but not literally.

"I'll break this door down." He grits his teeth and speaks like a growl. Slowly turning the knob I pray he doesn't hit me. Before I can fully open it, he pushes his way in slamming it behind him. I stumbled back but caught my balance.

"So, Why are you here, you're not supposed to be?" The look in his eye tells me he's not here to talk. He backs me into a wall getting in my face.

"Your in my head. Your everywhere. I can't seem to release you. Your like a demon or ghost that's never going to get enough of messing with my mind." He looks pained mentally and physically. I have no words for him.

"I've told you time and time before I've never wanted you to be in my life. I've told you multiple times I hated you. Why are you here?"

"I can't sleep your on mind all the time. I hate you too but every time I say that it feels like my heart gets hit by a hammer because my heart knows it's not true. " I stand stunned. He must be drunk because he can't be here telling me this. It has to be a dream.

"Why are you telling me these things?" I can't help but to ask.

"I-I -I" he stuttered but couldn't seem to get his full thoughts out. "I'm not sure, I thought it would make the weight that I'm carrying go away but it's not working." I cock my head to the side In thought and astonishment. This can't be true.

"I'm gonna go." He turns, head bowed ready to leave the same way he came.

"Wait, Stay with me. " I can't believe I'm said that but I said I felt my life was empty but when he had my pressed against the wall, I felt whole.

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