Los Angeles Love(Big Cat Fanfic)

We Can't Do This...Im So Sorry

Big Cat POV

As I got home, I was thinking about the kiss that just happened with Vanessa. It felt so right and so perfect. Eww I sound like a girl!! I decided to go take a shower because I smelled like the ocean and it was not a good version like the ocean air fresheners. I got out and put my shorts and Born A Lion shirt on to go to sleep. I plugged in my phone and then I remembered that I had pictures me and Vanessa took. I scrolled through them and she was smiling and laughing and it was adorable. Everytime I told her a joke or a funny comment on something, she would laugh and it was cute. I put my phone away and fell right to sleep. The next day I woke up and changed into my same old outfit which consisted of a Born A Lion shirt, skinny jeans, and my white Vans. I went to work at Rob's Fantasy Factory. I went to my office and I started with my normal day of doing nothing and just sitting in the cage. Rob then came to me and said,''Hey Big Cat!! What's going on?" I looked at him weirdly and replied,"Nothing,why?" Rob then pulled out his phone and showed me an article and pictures of me and Vanessa at Venice and Santa Monica playing around and laughing. In my head I said, "Shit, Vanessa won't like this at all." Rob said,"So a model Big Cat?!?" That's impressive!!" I said back,"We are just friends ok?!?" Rob then said," No need to get feisty little love kitten." He walked away with a smirk on his face and I yelled,"Just friends Rob!!!" He went to his office and I continued my day doing nothing. I was about to leave when I get a text from Vanessa. It said: Hey Big Cat would you mind coming over so we can talk about something? I replied with: Sure, yah right now? She said: Yah please. I packed my stuff from my office and headed to Vanessa's. I pulled in to the parking and headed to Vanessa's hotel room. She opened up and she looked beautiful. She wore a nice navy blue dress with black sandals and she had her hair curled and her usual makeup. She said," Come in Big Cat." I walked in and she led me to a nice white table with a black cloth and offered me something to drink. I drank a cup of water and then she looked at me. I told her,"Are u ok?"

Its then I saw a tear stream down her cheek and I asked," Why are you crying?" She didn't say anything and all I could do is hug her. She hugged back and held on to me like her life counted on it. Its in that moment she said,"Big Cat I can't go out with you. You need to find someone that loves you a lot and won't cause you any pain like me. We can't do this...I'm so sorry." I felt like someone ripped my heart out and stepped on it. I looked at her and I told her," What do you mean when you say that you will cause pain?" She said,"Just trust me and find a girl that deserves you a lot." Its then that I told her,"Vanessa please listen to me, you won't cause me pain and I need you as cheesy as that sounds." I wiped her tears and her smeared makeup off and I did what needed to be done. I grabbed her and kissed her like there was no tomorrow and I grabbed her delicate waist as she ran her little fingers through my hair. She bit my lip and I grabbed her tighter. I told her in the middle of the kiss while I was out of breath,"Please give me a chance because I might be awkward and shitty but I care for you." She smiled and said," You are not shitty Big Cat." She then pulled back and continued to say," Big Cat its sad that this is our last kiss but you will thank me later." Just when I thought she was gonna let me date her she went back to that we can't. I fixed myself up and she did the same. I told her,"Well then, I guess this is it." She gave me one last hug and she said,"We can still be friends." I walked out to my car and sat in the car for a while. I said to myself,"Shit I was so fuckin close to calling her mine." I smacked the steering wheel and then drove home. I was pissed off and I just fell asleep in my clothes without bothering to change and I laid there for a while.

Its then that the line,"I will just cause you pain", kept running through my head. I then came to a conclusion that something happened with her before she came here. Something in Miami....