Please don't judge me

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Milliana POV
I woke up and smiled. I've been doing good. But I don't like the fact that I don't know anyone and I know I'm supposed to stay lowkey but it's getting really lonely. I decided I'm gonna get something to eat and enjoy today. I get my house in 2 days and I need to get furniture and stuff. I got ready for the day and just wore my hair down. I grabbed my car keys and went down stairs. I payed for the room for 2 more nights.

I got in the car and turned the radio on. That same hurt voice came on the radio but this song was hyper. I actually liked it. I looked up the song, it was by some dude by the name of Xxxtentacion. His voice is soothing. I drove and got something to eat and then went to a park and ate. After I ate, I went furniture shopping. I got little things that I can put in my car. I went to get something to eat from Panda Express and then sat at the park and ate.

In the middle of eating I saw that there was a altercation between this man and lady. She looked to be in her 30's or 40's. The man started to get angrier. I started to fear for her. That's how dean started to look before he hurt me. Out of impulse I ran to her.

I didn't want her to hurt like I had been hurt. "Leave her alone!" I yelled at him as she stood there, shocked. "That bitch won't let me see my son." He said. I couldn't help but think of when I was younger. It reminded me of my parents.

//Flashback//

"No mark!" My mother yelled as I peeked out the door of the room. "I can't." She said as her voice cracked. "It's my damn child!" He yelled, banging on the door. She jumped whenever he'd yell or he'd bang on the door. I couldn't quite understand fully what was going on but I knew that it hurt my mom. She put her hand over her mouth, trying to hold in her cries.

//flashback over//

I snapped out of it as I saw him about to hit her. I shoved him as hard as I could. He didn't move much, but he turned towards me, angrily. I'm that exact moment I thought of dean. I fell to ground and balled up. Tears came out my eyes like a rainfall. "Go! Go now before I call Jahseh!" She yelled at him. I rocked myself back and forth, trying to calm down.

I heard his footsteps get farther and farther away. "Are you okay?" She asked. I didn't answer. "Please just say something." She said. I looked up and wiped my tears away, calming myself down. "I'm...fine." I say quietly to myself and then to her. "I'm sorry that I have to ask this but can you please give me a ride home." She said as I slowly nodded.

She helped me up and we walked to the car silently. We got in and drove to her house. She asked me about my life here and there and I was honest with her, but I didn't mention dean or why I moved. Once we got to her house she told me to come in. "You can stay in the guest room here." She said.

"That's really nice of you but I can't." I said. "No please, honestly I don't know what I would've did if you weren't there..." she said. I didn't say anything. "I didn't tell my son I was going to meet with him because my son would go crazy. But you were there and you helped when you didn't have to so now I'm helping you." She said. That's one of the nicest things anyone's ever done for me.

I gave her a weak smile. "Ok." I said. "Let's go get your things." She said as we left.

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We just put my things in her house and I've learned so much about her. Her name is cleo and she has 2 sons, Jahseh and Aiden. Aiden is the youngest and Jahseh is around my age and he does music. Cleo is Jamaican and she didn't have a good life coming up either which kinda made me feel a little understood by her. It feels nice to feel understood. I used to feel alone and just pain. I sat in the room not knowing what to do. I don't know what to do with my life.

I need a job but I don't know what I'm supposed to do about that. I didn't have a job when I was with Deon. He didn't let me have one. So now I'm sitting here confused and not knowing what to do. I heard a man's voice vaguely throughout the house. I peeked out. "Milliana come here." Cleo said. I walked out and awkwardly stood in front of her and this boy.

"This is Jahseh, Jahseh this is milliana." She said. "H-hi." I said. "Hey. My mom said you helped her today so thank you." He said and reached his hand out. I didn't take it. "Look, I know you don't know me but if you need anything I'm here, I owe you one for that." He said. I weakly smiled.

He seemed a little guarded but he was still being nice. "The food is ready." Cleo said as we both headed to the kitchen. I sat next to cleo and he sat across from me. Aiden sat next to him. "Who is that?" Aiden innocently asked cleo. "This is mommy's friend, say hi." She said. He shyly waved, making me smile big. Kids bring joy to my heart but sometimes they remind me of what I lost.

I saw Jahseh looking at me. I didn't want to say anything about it. We continued to eat our food and when we were done I helped cleo clean up. "Imma come check on you tomorrow." Jahseh said and gave his mom a hug and kissed her on the cheek. "Bye." He said to me and left. I went and got ready for bed.
Once I was done I fell asleep.

To be continued...