Milliana's POV I woke up to a loud voice. I sat up and listened for a bit. "No one's deserving of inside insanity, if the worlds making you crazy then it's fuck the world. Fuck anyone that doesn't understand you. Fuck anyone that doesn't wanna bend to your needs o-or what you deem necessary. Fuck em." The familiar voice said. That hit deeply. I felt like I needed that.
I sat in the doorway, listening to him talk. I don't think he knew I was there. He continued talking and I just listened. A few minutes later he ended it. He turned around and saw that I was watching.
"Did I wake you up?" He asked. "Yea but it's fine." I said. "I'll try and be quieter." He said. I sat on the couch by him. "Really... it's fine." I reassured him. We stayed silent for a minute. "Do you really believe that?... that you'll get the life you deserve." I asked. "Yea...even though it might take some time or it could even just be the way that you die but you will get what you deserve." I smiled at that. "I hope I deserve something good." I said.
"Good people always get hurt but they deserve good, I believe you deserve good." He said. I didn't say anything. "Wanna hear a song I made?" He asked.
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Me and Jah have got to know each other a little bit better and He makes me feel so understood. "Do you ever wonder why good people go through so much shit?" I asked. "Humanity's cruel so they take advantage of great people and eventually those great people end up broken." He said.
"I wasn't always this guarded." I said. "I figured. Do you mind telling me what happened?" He asked. "I'll give you the summary... and maybe if we still know each other in the future, I'll give you the full story." I said. He nodded towards me. "Didn't have perfect parents, grew up and didn't have a great relationship and I needed to escape that horrible life." I said.
"Hmm. Okay... I'll look forward to that full story because I know there's got to be more." He said. "What about you... what broke you." I said. "Well just like you if I were to summarize it. My childhood was hard, I kept looking for love in people who weren't willing to give me that love that I thought I needed and I just gave up." He said.
"I understand that. I think I chose to be numb to it." I sighed. "When you don't have the energy or time to deal with that pain being numb is what you do until you have the energy to feel the pain." He said. "Well I have to go to this event so see you some other time." He said. He gave me a genuine hug and left.
I got ready for the day. I have to go shopping for some more stuff for my house. I officially get the keys tomorrow and I still need a job because I can't depend on dean's money forever. I have to start looking for a job soon. So today I'm going to make a resume and submit applications too.
If there was any thing I could do I'd be a lawyer. I think I'm gonna go back to school for that. I got my keys and waited for cleo to get back so I could let her know that i know getting ready to go.
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I heard Cleo's voice echo throughout the house. I came out the room, greeting her. "Hi." I said. "Hey, you need something?" She asked. "Uhh, I'm going to the library and to the store for some furniture. I just wanted to let you know before leaving your house without you knowing." I said. She nodded. "Oh ok well be safe and call me if you need me." She said.
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I walked in seeing Jahseh and cleo on the couch watching tv and drinking wine. "Hey."cleo said as she sipped her drink. Jahseh waved. I greeted them. "Want some?" Cleo asked. I nodded and sat on the couch, putting my bag down. Cleo gave me a glass of wine. "Thank you." I said. "It's no problem." She said. We all just started talking.
"So do you here any social media's?" cleo asked. "Yea but I don't post I don't really have anyone on there so I should delete it." I chuckled. "C'mom let's take you a picture for your social media. Your too pretty for the world not to know you exist." Clea explained. "Oh no it's fine." I said. "Just one." Cleo said. I agreed and sat my glass down and posed.
Cleo snapped the picture and then showed me. "It looks nice." I said. She sent me the picture. "Now how do I post it?" I laughed at myself. "Oh I'm not quite good with that stuff but Jahseh teaches me every now and then but he can show you." She said as Jahseh came sat next to me showing me how to do it. "Thank you." I said. "Anytime and nice picture by the way." He said. I smiled a little.
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I put my phone down and finished talking to Cleo and Jahseh. "Since I know you just moved out here so you don't really have friends here, I have friends that you can meet just to make some connections in Florida." Jahseh said. "Well at the moment I'm not worried about making friends." I said. "I understand but they can also help you with the process of getting a job." He said. "Ok fine." I said and laughed a little. After I finished talking to them, I laid down.
Jahseh's POV Milliana went to bed so it just me and my mama chillin. "Thank you for being a friend to milliana." She said. "Yea, it's no problem." I responded. "She's a pretty gal." My mom said while sipping her drink and eyeing me. "Mhm." I said. She continued to eye me. "What ma?" I asked. I realized why she kept eyeing me. "No." I said shaking my head and laughing a little. "C'monnn." She said.
She pushed me playfully and laughed. "We've been tryna get you a girlfriend for the longest and she's singleee." She dragged the last part out. "That's the wine talking." I said. "She's been through some stuff and I don't wanna add to that and I don't think it's a good idea with my current accusations." I continued.
"Yes she has but, I think she'd be good for you. And I think she's trying to keep herself afloat with her own trauma to be worried about yours." She said. "Exactly why it's not a good idea." I shrugged. "Okay I'll leave it alone." She said, putting her hands up.
I finished up talking to my mom. "I think I'll crash here tonight." I said, yawning. "There's extra room in milliana's room." She said while laughing. I shook it off and went to my old room, laying in bed. My mom has been on this hunt to find me a girlfriend for the longest, because she says she wants grand babies. I eventually fell asleep.
