𝐃𝐎𝐍'𝐓 𝐋𝐎𝐎𝐊 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐌𝐄 - ᵏʸᵒⁿⁱˡᵉ

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Kyoya's POV

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I was about to burst.

He fell asleep. He's a fucking baby, oh my god. This face. He's so cute. Dude, not being able to kiss him was the biggest torture ever.

I petted softly his hair, giving them a few little kisses.

Yes, he makes me soft.

Mind me, biTCH-

- ... Is it... the end?, he mumbled, waking up.

That deep voice, bro-

Kyoya, stop being a dumbass and talk to him!

I coughed several times.

- Y-Yeah... Let's brush our teeth and sleep.

He agreed and got up.

Honestly, I was kind of upset that he didn't explain his strange behaviour but... okay, whatever.

Notmehopinghe'sdoingitvecausehefellformycharmswhowouldthinkthat???

I followed him to the bathroom, we washed our faces and brushed our teeth.

But something was bothering me.

And that was the problem.

We weren't saying anything.

I didn't tell him that I liked him. He didn't tell me why he was acting in such a way...

And I think that Nile also feels this weird tension.

It never existed between us, it's... really uncomfortable.

Plus, we're sleeping together so we couldn't just ''ignore'' this feeling of awkwardness.

We got out of the bathroom and lied on the bed.

My back was facing him.

I just couldn't dare to look at him in the eyes.

But, one minute later, I suddenly started to feel that... someone was hugging me.

No... it isn't-

I turned around and widened my eyes. Indeed, it was Nile.

He looked tired, but also ready for a conversation...

His hands - that were around my torso - travelled the way to my shoulders and he tried to glue himself to me.

- ... You really won't tell me?, I asked.

- I like you.

My jaw dropped.

What-?

So... sudden?

I... I wasn't expecting that to happen so suddenly.

I. so. wasn't. ready.

BECAUSE FOR FUCK'S SAKE-

H-HE... HE ALWAYS HATED ME!

He always tried to push me away!

So how?!

How did he actually fall for me?!

I don't understand, I was so confused!

But now, I wanted him to repeat what he said. Just to be sure.

Maybe I'm imagining things.

I don't know.

I really don't know.

- ... What did you just say?

He frowned a bit his eyebrows, lost in his thoughts.

- Say, Kyoya, do you hate me?

- Hah?! Of course no-!

- Not in a very bad way but... do you really like to spend time with me? Because... to be honest, I don't want you to view me as a mean person anymore... You have to know that... I'm very sorry for the way I treated you before, he apologised, looking and - probably - feeling very guilty.

- Hey, don't worry about that. You just don't really know how to express how you're feeling and that's why you can come up as rude. But... I never once thought that you were a bad person, Nile. Plus, if you bottle up all those feelings and carry alone the weight of your problems, of course you won't be able to trust people... however, you can still change that. I'm not the nicest or the best person ever, but... just for you to know : I genuinely care about you.

He widened his eyes and stayed paralysed for a second, in shock.

Suddenly, tears started to slide on his cheeks and before I could do anything, he rushed into my arms nesting his head in my chest.

- Thank you... thank you so much.

I chuckled lightly.

- It's nothing, really.

I made a lil pause before I continued...

- But baby, you gotta explain your behaviour and the '' I like you '' thingy~

He raised his head, showing me his burning red cheeks.

- Well... I mean... it's... pretty obvious, isn't it?

- Kinda~

He started to nervously play with his fingers, while giving me his explanations.

Let the rambling part start~~~~~

- At the beach, you... told me you were in love with someone. Since we barely talked in two weeks, I thought it was impossible for you to like me or at least to keep any ''feeling'', because I was... the worst with you... who just wanted to help me..., he gulped and blushed even more, To be honest, when I pushed you away, that was when I started missing you. I realized just how important you were to me. And I just needed to see you, to talk to you, but I wouldn't dare and... I thought it would be better for you to stay away from me... But it was so hard. And I'm sorry for coming back... like that. But... seeing you everyday, but not being able to talk to you was the worst! I felt like I've ruined everything!

I stayed silent, because he looked like he needed to add something.

- Kyoya, I... I got jealous., he admitted while lowering his head in shame, I got... extremely jealous when you said you liked somebody.

- ... Jealous?

- Yeah.

We stopped talking.

- ... Because I like you.

- How dare you say it like that...

- Say it like what...

I grabbed his wrists, pinned him on the bed and climbed on the top of him.

He was in his confused state, but I still smashed my lips on his, still not letting his hands go.

And that felt so fucking good.