shifting to hogwarts, my shifting experience

break

after the date, things went very well. i visited draco every day in his dorm after lessons and he would usually surprise me with a bunch of flowers.

one day, in the beginning of april, i went to draco's dorm to see him. he was sat on his bed with a miserable look on his face.

"we need to talk." he said.

i sat down next to him and rested my head on his shoulder. he pushed me off and said "i can't do this emily. i don't think i..."

i knew what he was going to say. i just was not expecting it. i never scripted for this to happen, i didn't want this to happen. i wanted to grow old with draco in this reality. i loved someone from a completely different reality, and now something happened beyond my control. its not like lucid dreaming where you chose what happens, this is real.

"i lost feelings for you."

i stare at him. a hundred thoughts run through my mind. i didn't shift to a completely different reality to be broken into a million pieces.

i couldn't speak. i just walked out.

i spent a whole week in my dorm crying, anyone who came near me i would scream at.
i didn't attend many lessons which left the teachers mad, but i didn't care.

~

i hadn't eaten anything for a week, i felt awful. not only because i was starving, but because i didn't know why draco left me. was it because he found another girl? or was it because i am no longer his type? either way i had no clue. i would've gone to his dorm to find out, but i felt so drained and feared it would only make the situation ten times worse.

i decided to go on a walk, get some air. the hall was deserted and the only other person in the hallway is cedric.

"hey." he shouted from a distance.

"hey."

he starts walking towards me.

"are you okay emily? you look-"

"im fine cedric. really." i said whilst lying.

"no your not, come back to my dorm and we can talk about it. everyone in my dorm is out, we can have hot chocolate and cookies. will that make you feel better?"

i smiled. for the first time in a week i smiled.

we make it back to cedric's dorm and we lie on his bed.

"tough week?" he asks

"i guess you could say that."

"wanna talk about it?"

"its just draco. he broke up with me because he lost feelings. we were perfect. everything was perfect."

"typical malfoy. honestly i am not surprised."

cedric pulled me into a warm hug. i felt safe, even though cedric was probably the biggest player of hogwarts. he pretty much has a new girlfriend every day.

after a few hot chocolates and cookies, we started getting touchy. one thing led to another and we hooked up.

i missed draco, a lot.

as i was leaving cedric's dorm he asked me "do you want to come back tomorrow?"

i smiled and said "see you tomorrow cedric."

"goodnight emily"

~

i went back the next night. me and cedric had a deep conversation that lead to him telling me he is attracted to me. i guess you could say he does take things very quickly.

after 2 days me and cedric were official, i knew it wouldn't last, but i just went along with it. the news spread like wildfire... which meant draco found out.

draco stopped attending classes. i was worried. i had to see if he was ok, so after a week of me and cedric dating, i had the nerve to see draco.

my heart was racing as i made my way to his dorm.

i arrived and knocked twice.

"come in." his voice sounded croaky and tired.

i walk in and to his shock, its me. he lets off a sarcastic laugh and says in tears "diggory. yeah, nice one."

"i was just checking up on you."

tears are streaming down his face. "am i really no one to you? you would just let me out of your life so easily, that quick?"

"draco. you broke up with me. i still love you and always will. you know i would take you back any minute of any day. i miss you so much, you don't know how hard its been these last few weeks... why did you do it draco?"

"emily... i was confused, about everything. things have been hard for me too, and it was for your own good. i still love you."

"nothing is good without you draco." i say whilst leaning into him for a hug.

"do you love cedric?" draco said quietly in my arms.

"no, i love you and you only."

~

i broke up with cedric. i left a note in his dorm during lunch break. he took it perfectly and we forgot about each other.

me and draco remained mutual for a week. we agreed to just have a break and eventually get back together again.

i was lying in my dorm one night and i had a gut feeling that draco was at the astronomy tower hoping i would come up. i could've been wrong, but i wasn't.

i made my way up there to not only see the clear, midnight sky, but draco too.

no words were said, but our relationship had resumed that night.