Assassin's Love Square

Chapter 8: Fleeing Feelings 🍊

~The Next Morning~

After leaving Chrollo's secluded island house, you made your way back to Illumi's place. You knocked on the door softly and called out to him. You heard hurried footsteps then the door swung open to a worried Illumi.

"Where the fuck have you been?" he asked, pulling you into the apartment.

"You know, just...out" you replied nonchalantly, "It's not like I actually live here. I don't have to report to you"

"Just tell me where you were. I'm worried" he responded, grasping your hands in his.

"I was just hanging out with some friends. They let me sleep over. It's no big deal"

"Hmph, 'friends'. Friends like Hisoka? Chrollo?" he prodded

"Yeah, what about it?"

"I don't want you hanging out with them," he said bluntly.

"Well, who I spend my time with is none of your business. In fact, I think I'm finally just going to get my own place" you declared.

"But you know what happens when you're alone at night. What are you going to do if-"

"UGH shut up! You don't know everything about me, Illumi!" you yelled turning to leave.

He grabbed your wrists and pulled them above your head, pinning you against the wall.

"Y/n, I want you. I want you so bad" he said, keeping one hand holding your arms firmly above you and the other traveling down to caress your curves.

 He fervently attacked your lips with his, his tongue entering and conquering your mouth almost immediately. You squirmed under his strong hold but he only tightened his grip in response. The kiss also grew rougher and he bent his knee between your legs, pressing you into the wall. His lips dove down and unleashed a relentless attack on your neck, sucking and biting desperately.

"Illumi- stop it" you gasped, trying to struggle from his hold.

"If you really wanted me to stop you would've made me" he responded before mercilessly covering your neck and collar with growing purple bruises. Your eyes began to tear, not because of his hold on you, but because of the desperate way he was clinging to you.

"Why are you doing this?" you asked through tears.

"I want you so bad I'd tie you up and lock you away if I could" he revealed.

You calmed your racing heart and whispered softly, "Let me go". He released you and backed away slowly allowing you to escape the apartment. You ran out of the building crying and found yourself heading towards Heaven's Arena. You had nowhere else to go and Chrollo's place was too far away. Sensing your presence, Hisoka came down to meet you in the lobby. He looked you up and down, worriedly, noticing your wet, puffy eyes and the countless bruises that were plastered all over your bust.

"Come on" he invited, without question.

He led you back up to his suite and sat you down on the couch. He kneeled in front of you and asked if he could get anything for you. You shook your head and he got up to turn around but you hurriedly hugged him from behind.

"Are you alright, my dear?" he said turning around to wrap you in his large arms.

"Yeah" you sniffled, snuggling up to him, "would you mind if I use your shower?" you asked meekly.

"Be my guest, dear. I'll bring you a towel and some clothes"

~In the Shower~

You let the hot water flow over you, easing your aching shoulders. After cleaning yourself, you just stood in the stream and let the steam gather in the room. Hisoka then entered the bathroom.

"You can put these on when you come out" he said placing some pjs on the sink.

"Wait. Would you um, like to join me?" you asked quietly

"If that's what you wish for, dear" he said before stripping and stepping into the shower. He took you in his arms, one hand on your waist, the other on your hip, and kissed you gently. He slowly drew away from the kiss and you giggled as a strand of saliva stretched, connecting you even though the kiss ended.

"I like that cute side of you that giggles at the smallest little things" he said as he stepped into the water stream. You watched as the water washed away the iconic symbols he wore on his face. He then grabbed a shampoo bottle and handed it to you.

"Would you mind helping me?" he asked innocently.

"Haha sure" you brightened.

Hisoka ducked his head lower and you gently massaged his scalp with the soap, washing away all the hair gel in it.

"Hm, I would've never guessed your hair is naturally straight" you said running your hands through it, brushing out the knots.

"Yes, well, there are many things you don't know about me" he said before catching your arm and bringing it up to his lips.

He slowly kissed your wrist and made his way up your arm leaving a trail of intimate kisses behind. When he got to your shoulder he didn't stop when he got to Illumi's marks, instead he continued his path and just made the touch of his lips softer. He went on with his conquest up your neck until coming to his destination and passionately capturing your lips. You let out a soft moan and he retreated to then trace the shape of your lips with his tongue. He reached past you and turned the water off.

"Come on, dearest. We have work tomorrow" he said, helping you out of the shower.

You dried each other, then you put on a t-shirt and boxers he gave you and climbed into bed. You cuddled quietly together, not speaking a word, rather, enjoying each other's company and warmth. You were wrapped safely in his arms and just listened to the sound of his breathing.

"Hey, Hisoka"

"Hmm?"

"Do you have nightmares?" you asked in a hushed voice. He didn't answer but you felt how his body tensed a bit at your question.

"I do too" you started, "Illumi's parents told me that my family was attacked in the night. I don't remember anything about them or that night but, I've never been able to sleep alone... After I left the Zoldycks, I slept with anyone who would give me a place to stay at night or I just didn't sleep at all" you confessed.

"My mother was a performer" he began, "I loved her and everyday had to watch silently as my father beat her. Well one day when I was strong enough, I had it and killed him" he sighed, "It's not the act of killing my father that haunts me, but the way my mother looked at me as if I was a monster" he revealed.

You hugged him tight and planted a gentle kiss on his cheek, "I don't think you're a monster"

"Thank you, y/n" you heard him say before drifting off to sleep.