Sorry That I'm Not Perfect

Sorry That I'm Not Perfect
yuriko.chn

I'm sorry for not being perfect

I'm not a person that can stand up well through all of my obstacles, I'm sacred, fear stands all over my mind, telling me that, am i even good enough? Idk, its just stuck into my head. Can i just run away from it? Solving it just way too complicated, why bothered when i can just stay away from it.

They say that what's your acheivement, what's your glory? What's your deal? What's the good thing about you? Why can't you do it, everybody can... Why can't you? I didn't ask for your opinion or anything, but... Am i even matter? Idk, and maybe idc anymore.

At my age, is it really this difficult? When i tried something they say I'm not capable, i didn't try it they say "she's the silent girl", i stand up towards my failure and they say don't pretend yourself that your strong. Okay than,...
The words that came out right after that.. Might be
Don't hear anyone's words, just kept yours, you don't need anybody to be you.
Than, no one's gonna hear me again except me? Okay I'll try to do it.. But for who? For whom? Still, it's going to be for others right?
From the bottom of my heart, idk, i really don't know what to do... All i think it was that "am i useless? Am i unwanted? Why can't i be like them? Why do people doesn't understand me? "
Everytime i felt down, yeah it's just a teens job. I felt happy, wacthout!! She's gonna act like a baby girl, getting all the attention.
Doing my hobby, what? You do this? Is it just for taking attraction for people? It's no use..

Okay
Okay
No,
I'm not okay

Can't you see? I tried?
I tried to be me, tried to be what they've been asking, tried to hear myself, hearing others,..
Idk
I think
I'm just being someone I'm not,..
Ask to god
What should i do?
Always being kind, to the things that hurted me? Being cheerfull even tough you know that I'm not,...
Idk, i think even god,..
Didn't really accept me just the way i am
And again
All i can do
Is just being things that i just wrote, pretending as if I'm okay, writing this as if I'm the only girl that felt this.
But the suffer
just getting deeper than ever

Singing a song
Watching movie
Drawing, sketch as if I'm capable, as if i can do anything.
Well
The truth
I know,...
That i can't
I can't be the person that is adored to others
I can't be the one that being wanted by others
And,..
I just can't being everything that others ask me about
I'm not perfect
That's just the way it is
That's the only thing
That I'm good with
So be it
Imperfect, just the way i am... And just the way how the world give me...
Thanks,
Thanks for giving me this hurted heart, and such a mindless mind.
I knew that I'm such a pain, but. Can i just tell them, can i just show them,..
That
I'm hurting