Love Me like I Once Loved You

Out Of My Life

2016
Oct 14th,

"You look different"
"No duh, it's been 5 years Colby"
He leaned against the wall looking in my eyes. I wasn't gonna put up with this bull. No more getting hurt because he lashes out, no more.

I ignored him the best I could but it was getting difficult. "You can't be mad at me forever Bonnie, eventually you'll love me again. Walking away from you isn't the worst thing I've ever done, remember how we met?"

2009
December 25th,

"Merry Christmas!!" My mother shouted coming into the living room with apple pie. I smiled so big looking around at my family. We were all so happy. I just got the notebook and computer I'd been needing.
"I'll join you guys in a moment!"  I headed up to my room and sat down at my desk looking at this notebook.

"I'm having thoughts I know I shouldn't be having, especially on Christmas. Being around too many people gets me nervous, it makes me think that the only thing I can do it kill some off. Is that bad? When I was 6 my mom put me on anti-psychotics which maybe that's the reason why I'm having these thoughts, or maybe it's just me"

I heard screams from the living room downstairs where everyone happened to be. So I ran down there. The building was on fire, the exits were blocked off and only one door we were able to get to, it was locked. The smoke infiltrated our lungs, I watched my father burn, I watched my aunt and my uncle go down in the flames. But my mom? My mom was shot. With all the smoke I could barely breathe, at this point I passed out.
I awoke in the snow with a beautiful man standing above me with a gun to my head.

"Ugh, I can't do it. Get up" he spoke. If he could kill my family why not me?

2016
Oct 14th,

"That day you didn't look at me like everyone else did, you didn't have any fear in your eyes. You were just like me and I knew it." He walked over to me and grabbed my shirt pulling me into him. Colby stared deep into my eyes with a grin.

"I mean come on, I killed your entire family and you're mad at me because I left you?" He chuckled and rolled his eyes.

Bonnie- "You didn't think we were still together did you?"

Colby- "I don't remember ever saying it was over." I pushed him away from me and tilted my head. I imitated that stupid creepy grin he always does. "Then let me make it clear. It's over. You killed my whole family that day because you didn't know me and I could understand that, but after almost two years of all our shit we've been through? I guess I just thought you had a little more decency" 

Colby- "More decency? I lit your house on fire because I was bored!"

Bonnie- "More decency for me! For me Colby, not anyone else." I walked away from him. Me and Colby only had feelings for each other, that's how i know we're meant to be because he wouldn't like anyone else.