Just Let Go

Step 4:Will You Be My Girlfriend

I woke up today and I thought last night was a dream. I went to a party and then the hottest guy in school asked me out. You can see why I thought it was a dream. I don't want a relationship right now tho. The funny thing is I have had a crush on Vallyk for years now and the second he asked me out I said I'll think about it. Old Xena would have jumped in his arms the minute he asked me out. But I just don't feel that way anymore. You know I think of Vallyk as my bestfriend well my only friend but same difference. I have to go to school oh no I'm gonna see him and he's gonna ask questions. Let me just get ready and see what happens. I got in the shower got dressed picked up some Wendy's on the way and went to school. Today I didn't have as much anxiety you know as I usually have. Normally I would just try to cover up my whole body but today I didn't care. I liked this new me she is kinda cool I guess. I was walking down the hallway and everything was perfectly fine. Until I saw Vallyk talking to some people. I tried to walk away as fast as I could. But as soon as I turned the corner he cornered me. Hey Xena so did you think about. Yeah I did um listen Vallyk I can't I'm sorry. Why not. I just can't ok right now your like my bestfriend and I don't wanna mess that up. Your the only friend I've had in years and I just want it to stay that way. Uh ok well it was worth a try I guess. So what are we doing today best friend. I don't know you wanna skip. Wait is the Xena asking me to skip. Yeah I am. Ok. We ditched out the back door and ran. We drove for hours and hours just listening to music and talking. It was so much fun. This is the way I want it to be. I don't want Vallyk to be my boyfriend or anyone else. But don't get me wrong i would still fuck the shit outta him. Anyways I gotta go get gas for the car and Vallyk wanted some snacks. So I'll see you guys next time.