Back for Christmas

 giving up

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But then as I was thinking about it something something else popped in my head Yeah they might've helped me but it doesn't make me think that they were just doing it for the kids and they actually hate me for what I did specially Johnny but it doesn't matter
"Hey you guys wanna go to that old karaoke place"Lauren Said"oh my god yeah we haven't been there in years"and he responds
they all agreed to go and the girls asked me and I said 'yeah' but I didn't really want to go
all the kids got up from the movie theater room and walked in to the living room Lauren told him what was going on and we started walking there and all I thought was
I didn't think coming back here,the first day,I would have to go to one place I've been avoiding since my mom left...
The last time I was here....I was with her we always came here....we would have so much fun and it was hard going back there....after everything we got to the placeI remember all those Memories and I just I can't do this
"Umm I'm going to go,I'll see you guys at home take care of your sister"I said as I look at cathy and then on everyone else"have fun everyone"I kiss my daughters head and walked away
I walked to a old Beach no one knows about it
besides Johnny so it was a perfect runaway spot,I sat down on the bench in the sand and I watched the water,
tears left my eyes.....I thought I got over it.
why does it feel like all the pain is coming back....i'm not a little girl anymore....I can't cry over stupid stuff like this not that I was able to when that happens but it's stupid I thought I was over it.....

Meanwhile with the rest

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we didn't even go inside..
I sat down on the step....."why was my mom acting so weird"I was worried...
I felt people sitting next to me and then Roxanna said something"did mom look like she was about to cry or was it just me"I looked at my little sister"yeah she did"Roxy look down"but I don't want mama to be sad"I wrap my arm around her shoulder"me neither,sis but we can't help if we don't know what happened!"Roxy nods her head
Everyone else was looking around and then someone said something"this used to be her favorite place!"Annie said I looked up and"what?!"I respond kind of shocked"yeah!!"Hayden responded"it was where she would go with her mom all the time!!"I looked at him and then a Johnny and Lauren and then back"wait do you mean Johnny's mom?!?!"I ask"what?!?!"they all say at the same time"no why would I mean Johnny's mom" Hayden asked"because She was the only real mother figure she had in her life..."I said looking down"wait what?!?!"Johnny said"yeah she had a mom!!"Lauren respond"yeah the person that gave birth to her!!our mom was just her second mom!!why did you think otherwise?!?"I looked up at them and they both say that at the same time"because she never talked about her mom,she talked about you guys way more than her-wait hold on-did she have a dad?!"
"yeah"they all sat at the Time that's when Roxy said"but how come she never talked about them!!!she never talked about her past much the only thing we knew about was you guys!!!"I responded"yeah that's why we wanted to come here!!we want to know more about her past..I mean my dad kill himself because of his past and my mom told me everything about his past but then when I asked her about hers!! she didn't say much she made another excuse..."I looked down and Roxy said some thing "it wasn't the worst excuse we did have to go to bed?!?"I looked at my little sister"yeah but I've asked her before because I knew about everything before you did"she looked at me"wait seriously?!"I answered"yeah a month after the funeral...she told me so I won't blame myself for what happened which I didn't..."I told my little sister"maybe this was a bad idea"she nodded"maybe you're right"

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Watching them talk about this and how they just want to now there mom's past I think I know why
"so you're going to give up"they both looked up at me"yeah what's the point"Catherine said"we're in the same place as she grew up and she's not even opening up"they say at the same time"she told me that you guys bags for years to come here and your gonna stop now"I say"yeah that's pretty much what giving up is!"Roxy said I looked at Johnny"you know you have the exact same attitude that she had About things" Johnny says,the girls looked at him"what?!?"they ask at the same time "well when she was younger she never gave up on anything no matter what then it weirdly change"he tells them"oh I remember that she was so bossy!!"
Carson said"oh my God it was a nightmare It was so bad Sometimes I thought it would never end!!"Annie sad"I know right!!"Hayden response"she was literally the most Bossy person ever!!"Jayden says"it was super weird when she stopped"Connor says"I agree with that one"I say"it wast one of my favorite things about her"Johnny said"yeah it was Even though it's so annoying i loved that about her"I responded
The two girls laugh we all said"what!?!" "nothing it just sounds like her she could be very bossy when she wants to be Specially when somebody messes with us!!"The girls look down"Did she really leave to pursue her career
did you guys actually now" Catherine asked"True because if you did know you would've at least stayed in touch"Roxy responds oh Annie finally said something because we all just went quiet"OK we didn't know she ran away when she was 19 The only thing we have left was cassette tapes which didn't really explain why she ran away!that's why Lauren want to her to come she want answers""Oh"the girls responded "she must've really hate this place if she never came back but I don't understand what happened"Roxy response"yeah neither do we"I say Catherine looked at me and Johnny
"So that's why she has a picture of you three"she says kind of low we we could hear her"wait!!what?!?"me me and Johnny respond
Catherine says"yeah she has a picture of you Johnny and her sitting on this bridge with Lauren in the middle and you both hugging Lauren
she has a picture of her my dad also which now kind of makes sense..."they both said at the same time the kids were just sitting there looking around that everyone we should get back to the house
we all agree and got up and walked up
when we got home
we all look for Kenzie but she was nowhere to be seen
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Hope you enjoy this chapter
I had a really fun time making it and I was trying to get the story done by Christmas but it's probably not gonna happen and that's why I wasn't updating any of my other stuff but I'm probably going to start