America

33.

I wanted the truth but it almost killed me knowing. You know? I opened my eyes as everything blurred over. I should have waited until I was in a better state of mind. Considering the fact that Marco is cheating & this baby is here now. My mom touched me, well my foster mom and I shut my eyes tight "please just don't touch me" I shook my head.

"I didn't want to tell you" she sighed. "If I could of kept it a secret a little bit longer until I actually figured out a better way to let you know then I would of" I sat up slowly.

"I went through all this stuff. & for what? You actually had me believing this was my dad. He beat my ass. And I thought granny was my actual granny." I shook my head and stood up "for years I've just been living a lie"

"It was one hell of a lie that you were happy living" she folded her arms and I chuckled.

"I wasn't even living. Passing through the days would be a more better description." Her mouth dropped "understand this. I was never comfortable with any of this. At all. You thought it was okay to hide something this big from me,but no. I'll never forgive you for the lie that you once created for me" I walked out the house. I got too much going on right now to be stressing. I went and met up with Vicky. We had a few drinks then she began to cut off my supply.

"You're not making this any better Merica. You can't just drink your life away" I looked her way as I wiped my mouth "pull yourself together. You have a child at home to take care of"

"I know. I know" I began to shed tears as I thought back on everything that has happened over the years.

"You need to talk to DaMarco. Yall came this far all I'm saying is keep it going" she shook her head. Maybe she is right. Maybe. I'll have to think about it. I've spent so much time trying to build with him. Spent so much time trying to be just more than friends but to think about it if it really mattered to him as much he wouldn't have jeopardized our relationship in the first place.

"I got a question?" She took a sip of her water then looked at me. "How can you just hold on to someone who done you wrong?"

"I love him." She smiled "I looked at all the good times. The good always out weighs the bad. I thought about the times I was in the hospital damn near about to die.. he was always by my side. I'm not saying what he did was right. Believe me it wasn't. I'm not finna let any woman come and try to wreck what we had" I nodded my head and got up. "Where are you going?" I tried walking away but I nearly fell over.

"Home Vicky" I smiled. I felt her grab one of my arms and put it around her neck and helped me to her car. I got in the passenger seat and laid back.

We got to the house and I went upstairs to my bedroom. Marco was laying down watching tv. I suddenly felt my food coming up. I ran to the bathroom. He jumped up and held my hair back. I shook my head "just let me be" I tried pushing him away but he didn't even budge.

"You're drunk" as he said that I turned back around and threw up again. He was still holding on to my hair

( ( DaMarco P.O.V.) )
I held onto her hair. "Just go. Please"  she begged. I think she was embarrassed to let me see her like this.

"I'm not going anywhere America. Your always preaching about handling the problem at hand. Now you're the one in the situation to where you need to take your advice." I wiped her mouth off and she just looked at me "start talking. Now" I said with so much anger

"There's nothing to talk about" she smirked and tried walking away from me but I pulled her by her arm.

"Talk"

"This is my fault. I shouldn't have messed around with you while you guys were together. I should have known your feelings for her wasn't gone... better yet I should have known this was gone happen" I let her go

"You act like you really know something America and you don't. You honestly don't know shit." I shook my head "My feelings are gone. She wanted to talk. I honestly believed  she wanted to talk-"

"She didn't do too much talking though did she?" She asked cutting me off but I didn't answer "my point exactly"

"It was just sex" I held my arms out

"And that was just a baby right?" I didn't like how she tried to relate the two. She walked away from me. I never thought I'd be here living this life going through this problem at the moment and I just don't know what to do.

( ( Coby POV. ))

Me and JaNasia was in my bedroom laying down. I was playing with my son while he was laying on my chest and my daughter stood outside the door with her teddy bear in her hand. "What's wrong babygirl?" I asked and she came in and laid in between me and Asia. She ignored me and turned to Asia

"Mommy? Are you and daddy getting back together?" Asia looked at me and sighed

"Ohh baby. That's a question for your daddy" she smiled then my daughter turned to me.

"Daddy?" She giggled and I smiled. I love seeing her smile. It reminds me of her mother.

"Don't even let that worry you babygirl. You like mommy being here with you?"I asked her and she smiled

"Yes. Please don't take her away from us daddy. Please" she whined. Its a process. I'll never keep my daughter away from her mother ever. I love Asia to death she just got infidelity issues.