YOU ARE MY END

FIRST GLANCE

Baekhyun smirked and left with Chanyeol following him. They reached the drawing-room when his mother asked him to come to the kitchen. Baekhyun was sure his mother was planning to persuade him but he was also firm on his decision.

"So, how's he? Your father told me Chanyeol father immortalized himself while serving his country and Chanyeol mother died during his birth. When he was 16 his father also left him while serving his country." Mom said with sad expressions, actually I was also feeling sorry for him but that doesn't mean I would change my decision. Mom continued.

"His grandparents actually brought him up, his grandmother was quite enthusiastic while she was telling us how hardworking Chanyeol was. How he burned his day and night to join the military academy. He's will turn 30 this year and you are 28. Your age is also quite compatible" she said while she had a huge smile on her face. She continued.

"You both even look so good with each other, I was sure he would reject you as I saw his expressions when he came here but when he saw you I saw some light in his eyes. He's so handsome as well and a Captain. Baekhyun please marry him" she said while giving me those puppy eyes. I chuckled at her antics.

"Mom if you like him so much why don't you marry him? Dad and your kids are quite open minded you know" I said with a playful smirk. She slapped my shoulder and pouted.

"I would have married him but I am already content with your father and certainly don't want to make a joke out of myself. He's good looking, has good education and a really nice job than why still you are saying no. I know you want to live free but see your brother is a monk and he dont want to associate with this material world. For God sake even sora who is 5 years younger to you is married with a kid." She sighed and continued with her gloomy expressions.

"We are getting old, love I know you can take care of yourself but then also I want you to be happy. Chanyeol grandparents are concerned as their grandson has no one other than them, they also told me he is quite introvert and reserved. You both are suitable for each other than why baek. Mom will die one day then who will look after you. Won't you feel alone in this big house" she said with tears in her beautiful eyes.

What him being introvert and reserved when just a while ago he openly and confidently state "I want you".I sighed. I know marriage is not a bad thing but I am just insecure what if things won't work out, what if he will cheat on me, what if and their were a lot of what ifs. I don't want to take the risk. I have been happy all till now and I would be happy in my future as well. I have seen my mother compromising in her relationships, bearing my father frustration from work when she was also stressed but she always kept quite. I dont want to live a life like that.

We are born alone and die alone as well. No matter how good Chanyeol is, my answer will stay the same. A very big "NO".

"Mom I know you are concerned but when I made my decision of never getting married I also integrated every aspect, I also did a deep introspection about myself and my feelings. I looked at every aspect of my life. I knew their will be a time when I will be alone but I never looked at like that, I always felt I will be their for myself. Mom please don't force me." Baekhyun said.

"Please I want to live a life in my terms, I don't want to be trapped. I want to be free. I always did the right thing. Never made any rackless decision that you didn't agreed with. But please let me live my like the way I want to." I continued.

"Chanyeol is a great man, but mom I know myself. I have spend years in understanding myself. And I know I am not made for marriage. I dont want anybody else to suffer with me. I am not the right person. The person with me in a marriage will suffer mom, I dont have qualities like compromising or negotiating, I don't have patience like you do and the most important mom I don't trust people. Now tell how will I be happy?" I said and looked at her with all my emotions that were being reflected in my eyes. There was sadness, aging and vexation as well.