The Silver Rose

Tidal Wave Tensions

   She might be gay. So what that doesn't matter, your just a lesbian that forty feet into the closet with no desire to leave eating ice-cream and crying, and she could casually threatens to drag you out forcefully. No that can't happen, I'm not repeating middle school. My mind continues to race as I pace my room. After about ten minutes of this I throw myself onto my bed and start to cuss into my pillow repeatedly, soon after there's a faint knock at my door.

   "Can I come In?" My Dad asks the honey in his voice still there. I just groan loudly in response and  sulk off my bed and open the door for him.

   "Yes?" I ask my voice tired 

   "Well I wanted to ask... Did you sleep at all?" He ask immediately after looking at me. My hair is a mess, my eyes unfocused and the bags under my eyes had to be clearly visible.

   "If I said yes would you believe me?" I say stepping from the door and walking to the desk in the corner of my room and start to get my papers together for school today... shit school will be FUN today.

   "No but, anyway what I wanted to ask was... does she know about...you? I know you need to come out on your own time and I'm fine with that, but I'm not blind to the fact it's hurting you. The longing looks at girls in the café the way you look couples... I mean other than me who knows, Ethan, your sister. This Mia girl is obviously LGBT. It might be good to let her in." He says like he just he cut the wire to an active bomb without checking if its the right one.

   "Dad... I...," I sigh pinching the bridge of my nose, "Look she's new, I don't know her. She might end up with the gossip girl , or in Cynthia's 'pack' or just be to extroverted to keep a secret. I appreciate the concern, but I'm fine." I say throwing my stuff I'm my bag.

   "Okay I understand... just think about it" he says and walks out of my room slowly and just as I close the door I hear something through the door.

  "Please."

   I start to run through the halls to my class. I'm late damn it fuckin traffic. I stop in front off the physics door and catch my breath. Okay lets do this, I'm ready. I open the door and all eyes turn to me. Mr. Davis looks at me an eyebrow raised.

   "And why are you late miss Rose?" he asks expectantly.

   "I... um... got caught in traffic on 181" I say heading to my seat.

   "Fine but don't let it happen again, anyway back to the lesson." he say going back on his rant no longer paying attention to me but the gazes stayed on me as I reached my seat I notice something. There she is just next to my seat, Mia. I try to play it off and sit down and start listen into Mr. Davis' lecture. 

   After about ten minutes she taps my shoulder, of course it wouldn't be that simple. She doesn't even wait for me to turn to her before she starts talking. 

   "I need help with this." she says calmly turning to meet my gaze. This girl is going to be the death of me.

   "Sure." I say knowing full and well that I'm going to regret this in the long run, but with that her face lights up.

   "So when do you want to meet up?" she says almost bouncing in her seat.

   "Well I don't have work today but I don't think my Dad will appreciate me being at the café today." I say looking down at my paper contemplating the best place to go... not the park, definitely not my place, maybe the library. 

  "We can just meet at my house." she say softly chuckling to herself then looking towards her paper again and start to scribble some notes down. Her face deep in concentration as Mr. Davis keeps rambling about  the gravitational equation and it components. Just as I look back to my paper the bell rings. I start to put my thing together when Mia slides a slip of paper on my desk and strides out of the room. I just look at it and it just simply her address. I slip it in my pocket and go back to packing my things. On my way out I catch a bit of the conversations around me then one of Cynthia's 'pack' walks up to me and smirks.

   "I don't know what you did but she's mad at you again. I think we both know what going to happen later but I thought I would warn you in advance," her smirk fades and I catch a glimpse of emotion in her eye but they sharpen up, "Have fun." she says her voice monotone and she walks back to the group a couple high-five her. 

   Well third period will be fun.

Mia's POV-

   On my way out of physics I look back at Roxanne on last time. After school today will be so much fun, I'm gonna have snacks ready and fuzzy blankets, its going to be great.

   I walk into journalism and stride up to my seat next to Ethan while he's just engrossed in a mobile game. I sit down and start to get my thing out of  my bag that I really need to organizes.

   "So you have any idea what your going to make on this, cause I have zero confidence with this" he says not even looking away from his phone.

   "No and maybe if you did your work instead of playing what is that.... Minecraft? Anyway do more work and play less games you might actually know what happening." I say putting my rough draft on my desk.

   "Maybe so but this is boring and my game are not so no thank you," He says calmly, "Did you talk to Rox in physics?"

   "Yeah, she coming to my house after school to help me with our project and my physics homework." I say my excitement seething from my words. 

   "Well that's new. She rarely accepts invites anywhere," he smiles like he just remembered and inside joke, "Anyway but you should be fine, she might be a bit reserved and nervous but she's a good person." he say looking into his phone but his mind was else where.

   "Yeah she seems really jittery, she's constantly looking over her shoulder in the halls." I say thinking about it.

   "She naturally paranoid," he says his voice melancholy, "It didn't use to be like that, you should have met her as a kid, I would have been barely able to tell you guys apart you personality's would have been identical." he say a small smile creeping on his face.

   "What happened?" I ask hoping I'm not pushing to far, he just shakes his head.

   "Its not my place to tell you... hey can you do me a favor." he says now looking at me his pricing green eye fixed on me.

   "Sure." I say  not to sure what to make of the situation.

   "Don't let her push you away. She's gonna try." He says like he's said this a hundred time before or rehearsed it.

   "Okay." I nod my head and grab my bag and stand up and walk out of the class the bell ringing shortly after. I walk across the building in silence think about what I just learned. I walk into English and take my seat. Rox wasn't here yet which was normal but on a second look around the room Cynthia was also gone, that was weird she seemed to be on time in the other classes we have together, a bad feeling starts to form in the pit of my gut but I don't pay attention to it.

   About ten minute into class they both are not back and I'm starting to get worried, but they both walk in at the same time and before the teacher can talk Cynthia pipes up.

   "I was helping a teacher and Roxy here so graciously offered to help I have a note." she says and places the note on her desk. They both made their way to their respective desks and the class brakes into a bunch a murmurs that I cant quiet catch the only words I could make out where, 'mad', 'goliath', and 'deserved it'. It was obvious to me that they where not helping a teacher.... what really going on between those two.

   Their connected and I'm going to figure out why.