Hongjoong: W-what?
His mouth was stuffed to I laughed at his cuteness. He looked at me a little shocked and he finished eating the bite of food.
Hongjoong: What happened? Why are you laughing?
: N-nothing pff I hee I just think you looked like a cute little baby heheheheh
I giggled to myself Hongjoong gave a lil pout like A LITTLEKEIUWGQAIDXHAI babie.
Hongjoong: I'm not cute like a baby... n e ways are you feeling a little better?
I thought to myself for a little and realized I was feeling better. He was like a healing sun I almost forgot all my troubles. I gave him a bright smile .
: I really am feeling better I really wanted to thank you. I haven't been this happy in years this feeling, I had almost forgotten how great it feels. Thank you for bringing it back to me even if its just for a short while.
He tried to hold back his sad expression. He really felt for me it was so so sweet. Making my smile fade a little I'm such a burden...
Hongjoong: How is your food?
He is trying to change the subject, he has good instincts. I took a bite out of my burger and automatically started to giggle. This shit hits dIfFeREnT it makes me wanna commit arson. Hongjoong laughed at my reaction.
: This shit slaps.
Hongjoong: Hehehe ok ok slow down!
We ate and talked for a while and then we had to go our separate ways. He gave me his room number and floor just incase I ever needed it. I watched as he walked away, slowly reality hit. I have to go back.... Peter came out to get our plates.
Peter: Are you okay?
:...yes thank you for the concern. I have to go back I'll see you later.
I gave him a soft smile as I walked up the almost endless stairs knowing what awaited me. I finally got to the door and took a deep breath. Hongjoong tried so hard now to make me feel better I'm not going to cry again. I walked in andthere was my father drunker then before. I turned to leave but he yelled making me freeze in place. I walked in and started to clean after him. Picking up his empty bottles and cans.
Father: You're disgusting... just like your mother... I wish you were never born I would be so happy if you weren't.
: leave me be....
father: you are so fucking disrespectful this is not how I raised you!
: well you didn't raise me so I guess that explains it
As those few words slipped from my lips. He hit me... a slap on the cheek his all his strength. I locked eyes with him as my hands shook.
: I hate you.... I HATE YOU
His eyes widened, my cheek throbbed with pain. Tears built in my eyes as he beat me down. All I could do is laugh which made him stop hitting. I looked up at him.
: If anyone is the disappointment here it's you. Your mother is probably so sad that you turned out this way. Just like your father, your abuser, her abuser. I feel sorry for her looking at you probably breaks her heart looking at her failure of a child.
father: Shut up! SHUT UP! You stupid whore you know nothing I should kill you.
I looked around to my phone and jacket at the entrance I had to run. I shoved him down grabbed my stuff and ran. what do I do? what do I do? where do I go ? I'm scared I'm so scared.... his room number! I ran until I got there but I stopped myself. How could I possibly go in to this mans room right now?
father: WHERE ARE YOU????
His voice shook my whole body making me jump, tears falling down my face. He was coming I must make a choice. I knocked...
: please be home! please be home!
Hongjoong opens the door he looked at me worried
Father: COME OUT LITTLE BITCH!!!
Hongjoong pulled me into his room swiftly and locked the door. Thank God...I fell to the floor trembling. My sobs were killing me I could barely breath. I could hear confused mumbles from other members around me.
Hongjoong: Are you ok?!? What happened?!? Who was that??
I couldn't get the words out of my throat they where stuck. Mingi walked closer to us.
Mingi: oh she is from the interview earlier...what happened are you ok??
I still couldn't answer it hurt so much i'm sorry i'm sorry I'm sorry. Hongjoong kneeled down in front of me.
Hongjoong: Wanna take a bath?
I nodded through sobs.
They drew me a bath and told me to call if I needed anything. They left the door closed for privacy and left me a change of clothes. I got into the steamy bath... about 15 minutes in Hongjoong knocked to check up on me. They were all so sweet I feel bad for dragging them into this. I finally got out of the bath and got dressed. The clothes they gave me were so long and baggy. I walked out with my wet dripping hair. I probably looked to disgusting right now. Hongjoong sat me down on the bed and pulled out a first aid kit. He started to treat me wounds like the angel he is. He is so sweet, all the members were in the room at this point. I was just looking around at the boys and saw looks of pity and confusion.
Hongjoong: You don't need to tell us anything but if you wanted to we are here to listen. I'm worried about you. You came here frantic with bruises everywhere. There was that man yelling for you. Are you still in danger?
:..... I don't really want to go into detail...but that man yelling was my father...he is pretty drunk right now he isn't always that bad....after we ate I went back... and he got drunker while I was gone...you guys really don't need to worry I was just being dramatic and left...
San: Was your dad the one that hit you?
Wooyoung lightly hit him on the shoulder.
:.......PFFFTHAHAHHAHHA
They all looked at me like I was crazy. I tried to compose myself, they all looked at San like wtf bro.
: it's fine..Pfft.. that was just really direct...
I stopped laughing
:Yeah he did....its normally more verbal.... he's just been getting really really drunk lately.... I don't think he will hurt me again... it just really took me by surprise
The silence was making me panic
Hongjoong: you can sleep here for tonight...
: No no no no its fine really I don't think he will hit me again I'll be fine. I was probably just being dramatic. I wouldn't want to bother you guys you guys are really busy. Just don't worry about me please you guys have enough on your plates. Plus I'm just a stranger, I'm really fine.
I can't burden them more then I have already.
Hongjoong: it's really ok the members that sleep in this room can go to the other room and you can rest here. Its ok you aren't bothering us .
: No no it's fine I'll just go back nothing will happen he probably isn't even there i'll be fine. If anything happens I'll just lock myself in the bathroom and wait it out. Promise ok?
They all looked at me modified and concerned
: Really its fine
I started to cry again
: I'm fine I'm fine ok I'm really ok
Seonghwa: you don't need to lie to us. If you don't want to be alone we have three beds. Some of us can stay here if that makes you feel safer. We can figure something you to make you comfortable enough to stay here. As long as you don't go back there.
I don't enact to bother them but at the same time I can't say no.... LOOK AT THEM... how the heck can I say no to these cute worried puppies.
: Ok ok ok fine i'll stay the night.
to be continued.....
