I woke up in a cold sweat, I sigh at myself and look around the dark room, empty again. I got out of the bundle of blankets that I was swaddled in it was cold, I felt the air on my bare skin. I shivered as I put on my clothes to go out and maybe get something in my stomach. I put on a sweater and my leggings. I didn't bother to look in the mirror because I knew i'd just see my puffy eyes from crying to sleep. I grabbed my phone and hoodie just incase I got cold I started walking down the stairs. I turned on my phone to see millions of texts from my friend Alex. I read them to see that I got into this interview with one of my favorite groups Ateez. My eyes widened with a mix of joy and anxiety. I didn't think i'd really win, surprisingly enough it was gonna be held at BNM news across the street from my hotel. I opened my email to see if I had any new emails about the interview. I had one new email explaining the time and what the interview was about. I went to the bathroom in the hotel restaurant as I anxiously picked at my nails. I splashed water in my face and looked at the time I had to go to the news place, it was 9:34 A.M I had to get there by 10. So then I took a slice of bread from the restaurant and thanked the waiter. Then I walked out to get there early, the bright sun surprised me a little and made my eyes burn. I pushed my hair out of my face as I took in the rays of light, its been so long since I could feel the sun, I enjoyed it. As I walked I thought of ateez, I love ateez so much. They make me smile every time I see them on my screen. Just thinking about seeing them makes me grin like an idiot, they really did help all of their fans by just existing and giving them a safe place. The whole world just looked more colorful I could almost cry from joy. I looked around at the street in between the hotel and the BNM news building so many cars were going across. I didn't realize the streets were so busy at this time. I crossed the street after waiting for a bit at the stop sign. When I walked into BNM news I took in the modern interior. It reminded me of my mom which made me smile lightly. I walked over to the front desk and they directed me back stage. As I started walking in the direction I was told. After about 10 minutes I realized.....I'm lost how the hell did I get lost when I got directions someone explain it to me. I started to panic a little I looked around, I was alone, I took a deep breath. I need to calm down. I took a second to just relax then I looked around for some kinda of direction. That's when I saw a sign that said backstage not that far away and walked over. I was late frick right when I got there I was rushed to the interview room I wasn't even prepared. That's when I saw ateez making me panic a lot how do they look so good in person they almost look fake. I feel like I was blushing just by looking at them how do they look 20 times better in person. The interview started, there was another fan with me she looked nice. The host started talking to ateez, Hongjoong started talking
Hongjoong: We are very lucky to be here today we'd like to thank you for inviting us.
Host: No its our pleasure! We brought two of your fans in today to ask them a few questions.
She signaled at the lady that worked there and she pushed us out to the sits we were supposed to sit, I thought to myself wtf she fricking pushed me. I took a deep breathe and sat down unaware of anything.
Host: So who are your biases?
Other fan: My bias is San!
Host: And why is that?
Other fan: Because I really like how he dances and I love his personality!
She blushed a lot as san went to reply
San: Thank you so much I really appreciate you.
He gave a deadly smile that made even my heart flutter the girl started to tear up happy tears I assume. I'm happy for her she is probably on cloud nine right now.
Host: And what about you?
I looked at her a little surprised I replied
: My bias is Mingi and Hongjoong.
I said nervously as I rubbed the back of my hand anxiously
Host: Oh you have two? why is that?
I thought to myself for a second the said
: Well I think all of them bring different great emotions to their fans and for me Hongjoong really makes me feel safe and loved. Not saying they all don't but for some reason he makes me smile so much when I see him. For Mingi when I first started to like them as a group I just really admired him. I honestly would say picking a bias was so hard and I still just love them all the same because they are all hardworking and talented.
I smiled shyly as I looked around thinking I misspoke a little when Hongjoong grabbed a mic with a huge smile.
Hongjoong: Wow that really means a lot to us I'm glad we can give you a safe place to smile!
Mingi: Yes we are so grateful!
They both smiled at me which made me die inside. I felt all flustered they are honestly like rays of sunshine. The interview went on and on until the end, I didn't pay much attention. I was too focused on their smiles as everyone said goodbye to the camera and the host. The other girl wanted to talk to ateez more and I just got shy and walked out. That was really an interesting experience they are so kind in person. I will remember this for the rest of my life I'm grateful I had this opportunity. As I was walking out of the building I pulled out my phone and realized the time.....shit...
