I ran across the street and up the hotel stairs back to my room. I opened the door to find my dad drinking on his bed. I didn't realize how late I was. He was already wasted, I walked in and closed the door behind me. I froze when I heard him stand up and stumble to the bathroom. I began to clean up after him, when he came back and sat on his bed again. This time he looked at me with a disgusted look on his face, I sighed knowing what was about to happen.
Dad: Where were you?
: I was just out...
Dad: Sure you were just out being a useless whore, I should have made your mom abort you. I would be so much more happy if you where never born. This is why your mom left you because you are a piece of shit that just takes up time and money for no reason. She never loved you or wanted you she would much rather your siblings than you. I should have just left you when I had the chance. I never once wanted you I wish you died so I can finally be happy.
I looked at him with anger in my eyes and pain in my chest. I walked out clenching my fists, tears fell from my eyes. This is so typical of him and all I can do I cry out my frustrations. I stopped in an empty hallway and broke down. I sat there and cried how pitiful could I be. I just wish I could leave here and never come back. I couldn't breathe, I choked on my sobs. It hurts so much it feels like I'm being suffocated by my own emotions. This feeling is not new to me, but that doesn't mean that it gets any easier.
???: Hey are you ok?
I recognized that voice, I slowly looked up. It's hongjoong, I stared at him in shocked as tears fell off my cheeks. He kneeled down and gave me a soft smile.
Hongjoong: what's wrong?
I realized the position I was just put in. so I wiped my tears away and quickly replied
: N- nothing I'm fine.
Why am I lying to him? Its not like he doesn't know that i'm obviously not ok. This is so stupid..why him of all people? I face palmed myself, maybe a little too hard because Hongjoong looked at me really concerned.
: Really don't worry about it, I'm fine.
I said in between sniffles, who tf do I think I'm fooling.
Hongjoong: Do you wanna go eat something?
: I really don't wanna bother you.
Hongjoong: It's really no bother you would be doing me a favor. I don't wanna eat alone.
He gave me a bright huge puppy smile how could I say no to that? I sighed and nodded as he helped me up. I probably look a mess right now, no different from when he first saw me though. He lead me down to the restaurant, holding my hand which made my heart almost give out. When we got down all of the stairs he led me to the dinner table. Whoa what is he doing OMG.. DI-DID HE JUST H-HE IS PULLING OUT MY MF CHAIR WTF. I didn't know men like this existed in real life. I blushed a little as I took a seat. Jeez how can one person be so nice.
Hongjoong: I'm not gonna pressure you to talk about it, though I would stay and listen if you wanted to let it out.
I looked at him shocked, Why does he even care? It's not like he knows me... I sighed
: I'm really ok... you don't need to worry about me... anyways what did you want to eat?
I tilted my head curiously.
Hongjoong: Oh yeah I almost forgot wheres the waiter?
: Hey Peter where are you?
I looked around and Peter walked out of the kitchen. He waved at me and looked surprised that I was here with someone.
