Silent Letters

To Whom it May Concern (I)

Due to boredom and curiousity,
Lead me to chat with a stranger who first said "hi".
Exchange of identity and information,
Then asking of permissions,
leading to late-night, senseless conversations...
We became friends although no personal meetings,
Because whenever there's a chance and asked,
excuses, situations, confusions and hindrances got mad and mixing.
Late night formal conversations turned to informal sweet sensations.
The almost and what if's started sinking in.
The appalled feeling due to slipped messages...
Makes my heart flutter,
But later on shattered by being followed by 'just kidding"
Its funny how "Hahaha" can change the aura and mood of a situation...
Leaving me in awe, confusion and thousands of questions.
What a bliss when a pop up appeared.
Smile can't be helped...
Although deep inside is full of vain hope.
I am not in control of what I feel for that is my weakness,
You triggered the emotion that I protected with a brick wall.
The cement is not as strong as how I expected it to be.
Your words has made it through loop holes and ooze your way in.
You have saved me from the anguish of past and mishapps.
You pulled me up in the depths of sinking fear and doubts.
But still it cant be helped that fear and doubt consume me.
How I wish your words are genuine.
For jokes are half meant.
And I meant what I said.
Days passed I just found myself typing and conveying with utmost sincerity.
Let the feelings flow, for pain is inevitable.
We'll never know what lies ahead unless we sketch a foresight of the dreams we will cherish together.