The Dishonorable

I Didn't Lose My Hearing

No one really tells you about the challenges that come with being pregnant. Of course, they tell you about the physical change that your body will go through. However, nothing really prepares you for those changes. As well as the mental and emotional change is something that's hard to grasp.

Yet, that's how I find myself being carried bridal style in sweet peas arm into the emergency room.

"Sweets I told you that I'm fine."

"Toni, you passed out in the middle of the grocery store! Your far from fine!"

"Ugh! I'm just tired, I just need to rest."

"Well, that's not for you to determine."

My emotions have been all over the place in the last few weeks since my grandpa's birthday. Seeing my family and having their support was great but I can't stop the hurt that also came that day.

Finding out that Cheryl is engaged hurts more than anything I could've possibly imagined. I wouldn't wish this type of pain on my worst enemy.

When people say that they want their ex to find someone that makes them happy and truly loves them do they really mean it?

Over the year's I've always felt like I was okay with her finding that.

I guess I was never really being honest with myself like I assumed I was.

"Toni, Toni, hello earth to Toni,"

"I hear you, sweets, geez, you don't have to yell. I didn't lose my hearing."

"Yeah, yeah, yeah, the nurse is talking to you, grumpy pants."

"I apologize. What were you saying?"

"Miss Topaz, I was telling you that I need to get your vitals as well as some information before the doctor can come and see you."

"Oh, okay."

Eyes scanning the hospital room, the white walls reminding me of room inspections at Advanced Individual Training (AIT).

A chill ran down my spine causing me to shake my head to stop the memory from playing.

Let's just say I hate clean sweep.

"Toni, I'm going to step out to call your grandpa and fangs. I'll let them know what's going on."

"Okay. I texted Cortez she'll be here in a few. If you have somewhere you need to be you can leave."

"No, I'm not leaving until I know that you and my nephew are okay."

"Swe......"

"Alright Ms. Topaz, the doctor will be with you shortly."

"Thank you."

"Sweets I promise if....."

"No matter what you say Tiny I am not...."

"Hi Ms. Topaz, I'm Doctor Hope. Before I start I wanted to know if it was okay if my residents can come in observe today?"

"Yeah, sure doc no problem."

The door swung open revealing the short women looking to be in her late twenties early thirties. Another woman came in but I turned my head back towards the doc catching on to the last part of her sentence.

"I would like for you to meet Chris Hope and Heather Moore the new residents here."

Wait did she just say, Heather Moore?

Looking to the left I see none other than the blonde-haired girl engaged to Cheryl.

"You've got to be FUCKING kidding me?!"