"You what?" Cheryl said jaw clenched arms crossed over her chest.
"Cher, I joined the army. I know it's unexpected but-" looking up at Cheryl
"Really, Toni?! Your bike breaking down or getting sick is unexpected, joining the fucking army is not unexpected!" Cheryl was pacing around the room, anger radiating off her body
"I didn't plan for this to happen It did."
"Plan for what, me to find out or forget about our plans to go to college together?"
"I've been trying to find the right time to tell you it's just that I could never- "
"How long?!" She yelled we were face to face now, she was breathing heavy
"4 months," I cringe as the words leave my mouth
"You've known for 4 months and not once did you think I deserved to know my girlfriend joined the army? God, I'm so stupid no wonder you wouldn't say anything when I would talk about summer or college!"
"I'm sorry okay. I was waiting on the right moment to tell you but"
"But what Toni, taking 5 seconds to say, "oh yeah babe I joined the army behind your back without talking to you about it first" is not that hard and would hurt a lot less than it does right now!"
"Cheryl, please let me explain I-" reaching for Cheryl's hands
"No, Toni stop!!!" pushing my hands away. Sending a barrage of punches to the chest.
"You're just like everyone else, using me until you get what you wanted and throwing me to the side like I'm nothing. What's worse is that you made me fall in love with you, made me believe you when you said you would never lie or hurt me!"
"Cheryl Stop! I never lied when I said any of that you have to believe me. I Love you and this is not me leaving, I'll come back to you. I understand people have hurt you in the past, but I've been by your side trying to prove that everyone is not out to manipulate you. That I'm not everyone else, I've been here and won't leave until you tell me to."
"You've kept this huge secret and expect me to believe you right now! Don't even bother! I'm done! You know your way out." Cheryl turns around leaves me standing there shocked Toni with tears running down my face.
At this moment I'm drained of all happiness, love, and joy. I don't have time to react.
Boom!
Slamming the bathroom door Cheryl slides down the door and tries to control her breathing. Putting her hands over her mouth stopping the wails from reaching Toni's ears.
I expected that Cheryl would react the way she did, but what I didn't expect was the pain that came with it to be this bad. I knew it would be hard for me to see Cheryl so hurt, but this was something entirely different.
I just destroyed my relationship, everything that we've built in a matter of seconds.
Cheryl sat against the wall her heart was shattered and the one person who could fix it was the one to break it. How could Toni not tell her about this huge decision that would not only affect her life but Cheryl's as well?
Standing in front of the bathroom door the only thing I could do was sit down and let Cheryl know I was there. Reminding her of the good times and to clarify that we will have many more memories together...
Upon hearing Toni talk about the future Cheryl pulled her legs to her chest and wrapped her arms around them. Shaking her head at every word that Toni said. How could they have a future when Toni would be in god knows what country doing god knows what?
Pressing my ear to the door I could hear Cheryl crying.
(I did this! I was selfish and now she's hurting! Nothing I can do will fix this!) I thought as she sits by the door
"Cher come out. Please don't let this be the way we say goodbye."
"Cheryl, please don't do this. (Face pressed against the door. Begging with tears streaming down my face, eye red and puffy with a look of defeat on my face)
Cheryl crawled to the door and pressed her face and her right hand to the door. She wanted to open the door but, she couldn't, she wasn't ready to face this reality.
"I know it was wrong of me to go behind your back and keep this a secret. Yes, I Know I did everything wrong and for that, Cheryl, I'm so sorry. I promise I wasn't trying to hurt you, you're the most important person in my life. I love you, Cheryl Blossom. You're my soul mate and the love of my life. Please, please don't let this be the way it ends. Baby Please. If you want me to leave, then I'll leave but please don't let it end like this."
I sat there for 5 minutes waiting on an answer, fat tears welling up in my eyes. It was faint but I heard her finally speak to me they just weren't the words I wanted to hear.
"I think you should leave."
"If that's what you really want then I'll leave." My voice breaks as my features contort in pain as if it physically hurts.
"Yes, please leave Toni."
"I love you and I'm sorry. I hope that you can forgive." My legs shake as I walk away from the door. I feel like I'm about to crumble into little pieces.
After packing I shoot a quick glance over my shoulder and I'm about to break down just at the mere thought of tonight events but I walk away heartbroken.
I wasn't thinking; I wasn't, and I lost the girl of my dreams and it was all my fault.
YOU ARE READING
The Dishonorable
Hayran KurguToni Topaz has joined the army and for the past 4 months has kept it a secret from everyone. What happens when she must leave for training the day after Graduation? How will everyone react to the news? What will life be like in the Army?
