The Reason Why ( Scarlet Heart Ryeo Fanfiction)

Deal

Stop..? STOPPP???!! How can I stop when I know he could be literally somewhere near me, I need to find the answers to everything that happened in the first place! My existence and everything, I've begun to question it all. I already feel like my entire has been written by someone with a terrible fate and I can't do anything about it because I'm so fucking helpless and you want me stop?!!! Why???

Growing angst makes Ha Jin start to llose her temper. She stops a cab by literally standing in front of it till it eventually stops. She finds her way into the car almost immediately and orders the clueless cab driver to follow the car. He suspects her though, for all he care she could be a con artist trying to rob him.

"Okay....? But why are we following him?" He asks her looking at the dash view mirror. He starts the car.

" He took my purse!! Please follow him!! Ha jin screams in frustration.

Even more suspicious, they guy turns to Ha Jin sitting behind him and mentally laughs like ' dude, that is one hella thief to be driving in Nissan after stealing a purse...'

"But, then how are you gonna pay?" He starts following the car now as he speeds up.

"He took the other one, I have money, just follow him!!!"

"Fair enough." He shrugs.

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After following the car religiously, Ji mong surprisingly parks his car at the side of road of bridge and gets out and stands near the concrete railings patiently waiting.

Ha Jin's car also stops behind him and she hands the driver the money and gets out in hurry. She stands facing him while he is facing the sunset in front of him.

There is silence as no one is starting the conversation. For Ha Jin, she doesn't know where to even begin meanwhile Ji Mong, he's mysterious as he has always been.

"How long were you going to follow me?... wait don't answer. What do you want to do now that you remember everything?" Says Ji mong after lighting a cigarette, he took out from his back pocket.

"Why... do you want me to stop? Do you know how hard I've been trying to find him to get even a single clue that he is here... and I could see him one more time... why... would you ask me to stop... now??" Ha Jin almost welling up, manages to ask him.

"Do you know why your memory are like nothing but senseless bits of deja vu, you can't even make sense of. You don't know a certain someone, a certain place or maybe someone's words that could've made a lot of sense before but now they don't." He continues after sighing.

"So what if you run into him, he could be well off married with a girl he loves and has several kids with no memories of you whatsoever. Do you want to go through all of that just so you could suffer in this world again, is that what you really want?"

I don't know. Seeing Na Young that day tore me apart, I could still not comprehend the fact that his love would be shared with someone likes of her. She took everything that was once mine. I don't hate her. But there are a lot of things that transcends the happiness of having a family and kids, something like being able to say goodbye before never meeting again. Having no regrets, and have all the answers you need in the end. It doesn't matter he is with whom right now, if I could see him one more time and ask....

Lost in her thoughts, the smiling face of 4th prince face that is no longer behind a hideous mask flashes before her eyes.

"I want to see him. And I'm going to. Nothing you say could stop me, I know your own existence goes beyond human capabilities, I don't know who you are. You could be from future, or past. You know my past and you could be knowing my future as well, but that doesn't mean I would stop. I'm going to find everything. Even if you choose not to help me." Says Ha Jin with a trembling voice.

"Do you remember you last words when you died in that world?" Ji mong says and throws the cigarette down and crushses it with his shoes.

"My...last... words?" Ha jin is confused and flustered as to why would he ask her that all of a sudden.

"As expected. You don't. So if you come to remember it someday, I'll wait for you right here. And I'll answer everything you want to know." He turns and faces her and sees her glaring at him with glassy beady black eyes of her.

She turns and starts to leave without a reply. It was good deal though. Just have to think with all her might to try and remember her last words and she would have all her answers just like that.

"So you will the look out for everyone I assume, who was somewhat speacial to you?... " Ji mong says in a slight loud tone.

Ha jin stops and her eyes widen.

"Are you going to meet the princes?" He asks her.

"I have no intention of meeting anyone else other than 4th prince."

She answers and continues to walk away again.

She lies. She does want to meet everyone that meant a lot to her in that world, be it anyone. But if it is Ho Seok...then....

Ha Jin stops as she notices her phone is vibrating. She picks it up, it was from her office.

"Hello?" Ha Jin say in soft voice.

"Yaa! Go Ha Jin! Where are you??? You were supposed to assist Na Eun sunbaenim today at the airport! Ho Seok sunbaenim is coming!! He is coming on such short notice though, we couldn't prepare anything for his welcome! Now call Na Eun sunbaenim, she's been trying to reach you but you weren't picking up! Now hurry!!" A loud female voice from the other side abruptly drops the call before she could utter another word.

What is this feeling? Where the heart is racing so fast but it's not happy or excited. .. then is it fear?

How... am I.... going... to see you... again.

She feels her knees getting weak.

"No intention of meeting anyone else? I hope you stick to your decision till the end because... I'm afraid that's not how 8th prince Wook thinks." Ji mong says and leaves shortly after.