It's been two weeks since our last conversation. I can't believe he hasn't reached out to me yet. Maybe we did start from the wrong foot. I can't seem to understand one thing though....
Am I doing something wrong? Should I leave everything be as it is or do I stop? I know I want to meet 4th prince anyhow, I just know he's here somewhere, but how do I find him, where do I even start? Would he also have no idea who I am? Or he will? I want so see him one more time so bad...
"Do you often zone out while company dinners? I'm not teasing you or anything girl, I'm just jealous how with this many loud people you are still so unbothered. Being a maknae is indeed a tough job ain't it?" Na eun whispers to Ha jin.
Caught off guard, she is dumbfounded but smiles and replies while pouring soju "It's not like that, sunbaenim. Here, please enjoy." She passes her glasses and they resume their converstation again.
"Being the only females in this team definitely sucks. By the way, I've noticed it for quite some time how you've gotten more quiet and secretive, you rarely talk and always seem to have something on your mind. Do you know how that makes me feel? Like I'm not doing my job properly being a senior. Is there a problem? Did someone broke your heart? Drop their address cuz I wanna talk-" being the dramatic person that she is, Na eun puts the glass on table and starts standing up with hands fixed on the table but is interrupted when Ha Jin tries to calm her down and urges she remains seated as it was only a misunderstanding.
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The night grows darker as everyone leaves in the restaurant in troubling drowsiness from alcohol. Na eun being unable to handle her alcohol stumbles a lot on the way back. Seeing this Ha jin offers her help but she denies saying she will be okay and she can't trouble her maknae when she already has a lot on her mind. Ha jin though books an uber immediately while Na eun rants about how she is a terrible sunbae.
They give their destination address to driver and are sitting comfortably in car. Na eun's head slowly starts drooping but supported by Ha jin's shoulder. They remain in the same position for the whole ride. But thoughts occupy her mind again as she looks out of the window, the dark sky with as little stars a city like Seoul has to offer
I wonder what he is doing, if he is happy, where is he, would he meet me if I ask him? Would he leave as well like 14th prince believing whatever I have to say is only absolute dream or hallucinations at best. I want to apologize to you nonetheless for not being there with you. In the end I'll accept everything destiny has to offer.
8th prince, 10th prince, 13th prince, Chae Ryun-a, Court Lady Oh, Lady Hae are you here too? Can I meet you? Can I meet you when I look out for you? I don't even know where to look for you, please, something, someone, somewhere, help me find them. I want to see them one more time.
She later smiles to herself remembering the good times when she first went to Goguryeo and encounters to with princes.
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Screeech.
They reach this apartment complex with not so high buildings. She gets her selfout and helps Na eun her home after paying the fair.
They walk by disturbing the prolonged silence with their irregular clinks of heels, Na eun being almost asleep has her one hand on Ha Jin's shoulder while rest of her body wants to kiss the floor so bad.
They get into lift, she presses 3 while staring at the piece of paper with Na eun's address on it, she wrote it herself when she was concious, good to know she knows how bad she is at handling alcohol. But she is really caring, when tomorrow she finds out how I helped her reach home she's gonna sulk even more about how bad she a senior she is. Lol.
Ding dong.
Click. Door opens as this slightly taller girl almost screams seeing the state her-
" UUUUNNNNNIIIIEEEEE...!!!!!" - is in.
But.
Wait a second.
You.
Are.... someone I know.
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The girl welcomes and helps Ha Jin take Na eun inside her bedroom and makes sure she is laid nicely with a blanket. Indeed she made her worry her for 2 hours about where she could be with her phone out of reach. But is glad to know someone really nice helped her reach home despite being it so late, such a selfless act makes her feel even more guilty and embarrassed.
Meanwhile Ha Jin's head again runs wild with all kinds of thoughts.
Let me sort this out quickly like why the hell are you here? You of all people, why are you... here? Do you not recognize me at all? Is it like that with you as well? If I try to remind you or tell you anything, am I the crazy one? I couldn't be there with him, hell I wasn't with anyone to see how things were destined to be. But you... you were there. Tell me, do you know him, do you have any idea where he could be? How can you smile like that, when he suffered so much. I don't you cuz I know you're not her, you can't be like her. So do you maybe have any idea about what happened to him, I need answers, I've got so many questions, tell me everything you know, if you do ... please.
Na eun's sister then moves to thank Ha Jin properly and bows down when she notices how her eyes been focused on her, which to be honest made her a little comfortable. But she smiles apologetically and expresses her gratitude.
" I'm her sister Na young, I've been trying to reach her for 2 hours but I don't think she has any idea where her phone could be. Anyways nice meeting you and Thank you so much for your help, please let me know if I can help you in anyway.
She then proceeds her right hand and asks her guest "What's your name?"
I never thought I'd meet someone from then if I don't look for them, but I am meeting you now. I don't know how to feel about that. As for my name...
" Hae soo." She forwards her right hand and they shake their hands.
"Hae... soo..." Na young repeats as the smile slowly fades away from her face.
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The Reason Why ( Scarlet Heart Ryeo Fanfiction)
Fiksi PenggemarHae soo died. She left Wang so all alone in the midst of his reign that had just began. He never even got to meet her for the last time. The letters that were sent to him, what's the point of reading them now when there's no one to send his replies...