The Sweet Escape || S.R.

To Be So Lonely

Y/N POV:

I woke up cold and alone. I expected the warmth of my best friends arms, but he was no where to be found.

I got up in a daze to find a fold note with my name on it. It read:

Dear Y/N,

Hotch called me in for a case. I'll text you where and approximately how long I'll be gone. When I get back we are going to talk about the state I found you in last night. I'm worried about you Y/N. Garcia will be by tonight, she may even bring her equipment to the apartment so she can keep an eye on you. Stay safe.

Love,

Spence

Great. So he's gone again, and when he gets back I have to explain to him why I was having a panic attack. Love that.

At least I'll have Garcia. Me and her have gotten close after these few months of my isolation.

I look for my phone, and as soon as I find it I see a test from Spencer.

Spence🤓: We are heading to Pittsburg, PA. I promise I'll be back as soon as I can.

I quickly reply with a short "okay :)" and go to cook breakfast.

A FEW HOURS LATER...

*knock* *knock*

I jump. Should I answer the door? The last time I did my ex was there. All my fears wash away when I hear the bubbly voice of Penelope Garcia.

"Babycakes, I'm here with take-out and a movie!!" I run to the door with a smile plastered on my face.

"Penny, it's so good to see you!" As she closes the door I pull her into a hug.

We talk for a few hours, and she asks me something that I wasnt ready for.

"I dont want to intrude, and I know you and Spencer have been besties for years. But... do you like Reid? Like i mean like like, like "I want you to rail me into a wall like". You know?" You looked at her in awe, she seems too innocent for those words to be coming out of her mouth. Like I know how she talks to Morgan, but damn.

"Sorry Y/N, did I cross a line?"

"No Penny, I just wasnt expecting a question like that from you. But to answer your question... if I'm being honest, and listen you cant say anything to anyone, not even Morgan."

"Okay okay spill" she jumped up and down excitedly.

"I think I do. But I'm not sure, maybe it's just because hes been keeping me safe. Or maybe its feelings I've pushed back and now that I'm spending most of my time with him I see it. I've always been attracted to him, but now its different. When he leaves I feel empty and when hes here I feel full. I just feel like I'm not good enough for him. I'm not Maeve. I'm not smart. I don't understand his statistics or his quotes, but I love hearing them. I just dont know what to do." I start to feel tears brim my eyes.

"You are more than enough Y/N! If he doesnt like you then hes blind, but would he be doing all of this if he didnt? He cares about you, I know that much." I nod.

"I think I'm going to wait awhile to tell him though. I want my ex to be out of the way before I try to talk to Spence about my feelings."

"Makes sense love. You need some sleep, and so do I. Is it cool if i crash her tonight?"

"I know Spence wouldnt care so of course." We bid our nightly farewell and both fall asleep.

(A/N this chapter is kinda a filler. Also IS EVERYONE EXCITED FOR THE GOLDEN MUSIC VIDEO BECAUSE I AM!! Anyways have a good Sunday✌)