Forever? *fanfic*

30.runaway

I waited till dan fell asleep and I left.It was 4 am.I couldn't face anyone right now.I get than dan understands but even phil was ashamed of me.Ive turned into a horrible person I cheated on joe.I need to cry and get away from it all.I made my way to the train station.I got on the train what takes me to the train station near Marcus's.
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I got to the door it was half past six.I text Marcus
|Are you up?Can we talk x|
Marcus wouldn't even be awake yet.I looked a mess it was in joggers and a baggy top.My make up was smudged and my hair was a mess.I hadn't even thought about how much worse I just made the situation.I ran away.Ive never been very good with my feelings.Im a cheat.Im scum and even Marcus won't want to talk to me.I sighed and put my head in my hands.My phone vibrated.
|I am now ring me if you want?| I got off the step and knocked on the door.a very tired looking Marcus answered."Ohmygod ruby what's happened? Come in" Marcus said putting his arm round me. "I don't deserve your kindness Marcus"I put my head down.He sat me down on the sofa and gave me a blanket.He made me a hot chocolate.I just laid there pathetically crying.Like crying would help anything.
Eventually Marcus came in put two mugs on the table and sat on the sofa and cradled me."Marcus I've messed up big time ...I'm scum".Marcus held me tighter he wiped away the tears and waited for me to speak.
"I kissed dan in Paris...but erm I may have almost had sex with him"I said.Marcus looked at me with a shocked expression."oh rubyyyy"he said stroking my hair."I said we can't and dan was like I know so then I cried in the bathroom waited till he went to sleep and left" Marcus sighed "atleast you didn't sleep with him I guess does anyone els know?or know your here?" I shook my head "no I didn't know what els to do I'll go"I said standing up.Marcus pulled me back down "don't be stupid come here"he said pulling me into a hug.I cried into his stomach."are you going to let any one know your here?"
"No Marcus I just need to get away"I sighed I remembered Beth was coming today.I had well and truly messed this one up.
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It's 3 o'clock.Ive spent the day eating,sleeping and watching films.Marcus hasn't told anyone I'm here.He says I can stay as long as I want.Ive had over ten missed calls and the same for texts.I stopped looking who they were from after i read dan and joe.Another few mins has past and there was a knock at the door.Marcus answered "Oh hi joe and you must be Beth?"he said nervously.I felt nervous I just wanted to cry and leave how did he even know I was here.I don't deserve anyone.

{I was going to include more in this chapter but I'm too tired to write anymore.Remember to give me feedback.Thanks for your support it means a lot...have a nice day:) }