talking to the moon

Chapter six

Memories are funny things. My first recollection of Lana remains crystal clear even to this day- that shinning jewelry on her neck, wrist, and ears, a silhouette washed in light by the sun on a orbit brilliant blue day, the profile of her perfect face, a slender tail of her brown-colored hair hanging past her shoulders, her hands folded behind her back. How pretty she looked. She really does resemble her a lot. I can't help but feel sad she will leave me too...

Mother leads us forward to the door where Lana is when we reach it she look at me smiling but eyes filled with sadness my sisters are really terrible at hiding their feelings. 

Months went by fast since she announced that she is leaving, I try my best to spend more time with her but I think I am more used to being alone than spending my precious time with my family. Now's the time my sister is gonna leave me and soon will I be with Maddie.

"Hello" Lana said " I'm really gonna miss you Avi" she said as she starts to tear up, I smiled at her  " Lana I'm gonna be the big sister to Maddie now I can handle her so don't ever worry about me we will be fine" she wipe her tears and smiled" take care of them for me alright?" reassuring her that everything will be alright " I got you I will take care of everything" she nods "take care of yourself too okay?" 

"Don't worry Lana I will take care of Avrielle" Teren interrupted as he makes his way to us, I looked at him forcing myself to not glare at him, I look back at Lana " Oh alright, I guess I have nothing to worry about" she laughed, Teren laughed and give Lana a hug. 

We talked for a while but she has to go now, Lana entered the car, she wave her last goodbye as the car starts to move away from our home, away from us, away for a long time. 

I went to my room, somehow the house feels different now that Lana's gone, its the same feeling when Lina died I felt this weird feeling is the kind of feeling I never wanna feel again but here it goes the same odd feeling I feel every time a family member left. 

"Hey can I come in" I look up to see my mother at the door "Yes mother please come in" she walked to my bed and hug me "Oh honey are you feeling alright?" 

"Yes mother I am totally fine I promise" she looked at me suspiciously " Are you sure?" I smiled " yes mother your daughter is totally fine" she smiled back and hugged me again

"well I actually came here because I wanna tell you something" she looked away "something I should have told 3 years ago" she looked more serious than ever "what is it mother?" 

"I- you see that night when before the fire your father and I- we planned on starting the fire, we didn't think that it will kill one of you" my eyes widened my mind shutdown my thoughts flies my eyes starts to cry my head full of questions, I looked down 

"why mother?" I whispered I can feel my anger rising "Why?!!" I immediately covered my mouth I didn't think I would ever scream at my mother "why??" I start to break down 

she hugged me "Avi let me explain your fathers comrades is hunting us down ans this is the last resort we have to do we have no choice or they will kill us, we need to burn the house down to lure them into thinking that we are already dead we even have to change everything, even your names we did it for your own sake honey, please forgive me and your father" 

"does Lana know about this?" I asked, she lets go of the hug and nodded "I told her last night" 

she looked at me "Avi please forgi-" "leave" I said in a cold tone "please mother just leave me alone, for now I want to be alone please" she nodded and kissed me in the forehead and left, I walked into the balcony " I see its full moon tonight" I said in my crack voice I whipped my tears as it keep tearing up 

All the information I got is trying to make me come back to the memories I never wanna remember again.