talking to the moon

Chapter seven

Looking at moon with all these memories and realization coming right at me, makes the pain that I'm feeling worst, so many questions why? Why didn't I know about this? Why did they hide this to us? What? What was my real name? If its not Avrielle then what? I never knew having unanswered questions will simply  make me insane

"Hey" I looked back and saw Teren at my door "What do you want? And please make it fast" He chuckled "You didn't even let me in your room first" Goodness Teren and His manners "Why do you always need to ask? You do know you don't a permission in everything"

"Well Avi-"  "its Avrielle not Avi" I cut him off
"Tch why do you hate me so much?" I smiled and drank my water "No no I don't hate you Teren its just that-" "You secretly love me?" I almost spitted my water on him "What's wrong with you?!!!!" He laughed at  me " I was only joking Avrielle I know life's been hard on you so I thought I will try and make you laugh" I was shocked to be honest is this really Teren I'm talking to right now? Goodness

"And Avrielle I know what's been happening to you these past months" I look at Him "Wait how did you know?" He looked back at me, seriousness filled His eyes "I know what happened that night Avrielle I was there" my eyes widened no this can't be happening did he- "did you see something? Me and Lina??" He nodded, my whole world crashed my eyes starts to water, my fears strike me again, I suddenly felt weak

"Avrielle!!" Teren catched me "are you okay what's wrong are you sick??" "Avrielle" seeing His eyes being light up by the moons aura and  seeing the worried look His giving me, I didn't care anymore, I started to cry hard and tremble, without saying a word Teren pulled me into a hugged, caressing my hair, I felt calm, I feel safe, I let myself go and cried in His arms tonight, its the only way I can escape every single thing that I'm feeling right now

"Teren... I'm tired can I sleep now? And never wake up" He sighed and carried me to my bed "Stop that Avrielle think about your family what do you think they will feel if you- I don't wanna think about this stop this nonsense sleep now ill see you tommorow" He walked away "I'll tell Maddie to sleep in the other room so you can have  your own space for tonight" I smiled at Him "Thank you Teren" He looked back at me smiled and Nodded then he left my room as I hear the door closing I also closed my eyes and let myself fall asleep.........

"Avi dear wake up" I squinted my eyes only to see my own mother staring back at me

"Oh goodmorning mother" I said still yawning, still tired

"How are you feeling? Teren told me you were sick" I laughed  "I feel a lot better Mother" As she starts caressing my hair she smiled "Avrielle you are so delicate and precious like a vase dear like a vase... You look so strong yet so fragile at the same I just hope  you won't fall down and break"

I smiled "As your daughter I won't let that happen I promise" She just hugged me back

I waisted all my afternoon walking on our garden, no matter how hard I try To forget about the things I long answers for I still can't help but wonder something my real name ugh I hate this Its bothering me so much.... I heard footsteps but now I recognize them just my luck its Teren's , I look around and saw him picking up rocks by the fountain I immediately approached him I knew He can answer my questions at least some of them

"Teren!"  I screamed while running towards him, He look at me "Oh hi there Avi" 

"Its Avrielle not Avi" I said still catching my breath "oh my bad-" "I'm not here to chit chat Teren I wanted to know do you know my real name?" His smile suddenly fade "I don't know Avrielle" He said coldly, liar I can see right through you Teren 

I sighed and looked him straight in the eye "Don't lie to me and tell me the truth ,do you know my real name Teren" "I said I don't kno-" "LIAR!!!!" I shouted at him "stop this!! just tell me the truth, now why do all of you always keeps a secret from me I deserve to know the truth Teren I deserve it stop saying I don't know and just say it" I broke down to the ground

"you're all the same you, mother, Lana,Dad, even Lina all of you never trusted me enough to tell me the truth, none of you bothered to even sat down and tell it to me, you all lied to me about everything, you all kept secrets from me but why?"

"Avriel-" 

 "please Teren im begging you just tell me the truth I want the truth"

"Avrielle there's a proper time to talk about this" He said as he helped get up but I slapped his hand tears falling from my eyes I stared at him

"If not now then when? when's the proper time huh Teren? when I finally moved on from all this thats when you are gonna barge this questions and truth in my head again? just like what mother did last week? I was finally happy I finally found peace, I can say that I finally escaped my nightmares and then mother just told me everything and now my life was turned upside down again, is that what you are planning to do Teren huh?"

"just not know Avrielle come here" 

"No!" I stand up "If you're gonna tell me the truth then I have no business with you goodbye"

I turned around and walked away wiping my tears then I started to run

"You'll know the truth Avrielle one day" I heard him say but I didn't care anymore no validation when, then I have nothing to do with him 

I just know I can't really trust anyone anymore but I needed to find the truth...................