WHY ME

I'll learn

Billies POV
What the hell am I going to do with her. She is a hand full that's for sure. She's all mine and I can't help but feel bad that I killed her little friend or whatever. Sike, I don't feel bad. But maybe that's what I feel bad about, not having any remorse for anyone. I should feel bad. When she told me about all the things that have happened in her life I felt a little bad. She's changing me some how and I don't know if I like it.

It's 10:26 and she's still in my arms sleep. I know she's not gonna wake up soon because I know she hasn't been able to sleep. I eventually get bored and hungry so I leave the room and head to the kitchen. I walk in and there is Danielle, Finneas, Noah, and X all sitting at the island.

"I'm thinking pancakes for breakfast...anyone." Finneas said grabbing a pan.

"Hell yea" everyone said. Finneas turned to me.

"Pancakes?" He said with a smile.

"Yea just don't make mine with them nasty ass chocolate chips like last time."

"Sorry about stabbing your little toy." He said actually looking sorry.

"It's cool, I kinda told you to do it" I laughed and everyone followed after. I take a seat by Noah. Then Kiarah limps into the room.

"Who the fuck told her she could be down here." Danielle said looking like she was gonna beat her ass or something.

"Yo chill the fuck out bro. I'm surprised she even found the kitchen in this big ass house." X said and he was giving Danielle the 'stank eye' which was obviously getting to her.

"Don't mind those dumbass's, come sit right her baby Finneas is making pancakes." I said patting the seat next to mine.

Kiarah's POV

"What kind of pancakes."

"Depends, do you want chocolate chips?" Finneas said and I couldn't tell if he was being serious or not.

"Fuck no, that shits nasty"

"That's my girl, she gets it." Billie said wrapping her arm around me. It felt good to be in the open air with people.

"Sorry for stabbing you." The room fills with awkward silence.

"It's cool, I did try to run away." I laughed and got up to get something to drink. I am in a really good mood for some reason.

"Is it just me or is she getting a little comfortable." Noah said

"Yea too comfortable" X said and I could feel eyes on me.

"Let me help you" Billie got up worried about my leg.

"I'm fine, babe." I knew what I was doing by saying that. I could tell she was a little shocked.

"Oh ok" Billie said backing off.

"Oh she finna have you whipped. Haha" Finneas laughed.

I have an idea.
I go sit on Noah's lap to get Billie a little jealous. God I'm in a good mood.
Noah seemed shocked but it took her no time to put her hand on my thigh. Billie just stared me down.

"Oh I like her, you mind sharing Billie?"

"Fuck no." She said sucking her teeth.
"Kiarah come here." Billie grabbed my arm and basically dragged me out to the next room.

"What the hell is up with you today. I'm not saying I don't like this change in attitude but I don't like you cuddling up with my friends like that." She sounded really serious. But I wasn't gonna let it ruin my mood.

"I can't be in a good mood." I smirked.

"I mean you can be in a good mood with me." She kissed my forehead.

"Okay." I felt my cheeks turn red.

"Yo pancakes are ready love bird." X interrupted us. But we stay where we are.

"So, what's the reason for this good mood." She said looking directly at me. He eyes are gorgeous. The perfect shade of blue.

"I'm learning to like it here. Just like you said. I don't like being the quiet shy scared person. That's not me. I have some dark secrets. Who knows maybe I'll even love it here." I basically laughed through the whole thing.

"This isn't one of your ways to trick me into letting you go out, is it?" She looked confused.

"No dumbass. I'll learn I promise." I grabbed her hand hoping for a little more intimacy.

"Okay, maybe I can learn some of those secrets of yours." She laughed and nudged my shoulder while we walked back to the kitchen.

We got back and we were welcomed with pancakes and orange juice. We sat in our same seats and ate. I've never had vegan pancakes before but these were amazing.
I looked over at Billie and she had syrup on her face.

"Babe?" I said turning to her.

"Yes babygirl." She said turning back.

"You've got something one your face." I pointed.

"What. Right here." She obviously didn't get the right spot. Which gives me an opportunity.

"Nope, I'll get it." I licked the side of her mouth lightly and gave her a kiss.

"You taste sweet" Billie said. She was definitely surprised but she didn't mind it.

"Get a room. You horny fucks." Noah said looking jealous.

"Ok settle down. We have business to take care of." Finneas looked annoyed and impatient.
"We need more members. Everyone else is dead and we can't keep going with only the 5 of us."

"Hes right. We need to jump someone in. Someone trust worthy." Danielle spoke up.

"I'll do it." I said and everyone choked on there food. I can't even believe I just said that. I've never even thought about it. It did sound fun though.

"Yes, I can actually punch her ass." Danielle sound excited which made me a little worried.

"Hell no. She is not doing this, you are not doing this." Billie said.

"Actually that's a good idea she knows us....kinda. She's okay with it and she's not going anywhere. She's perfect."
Finneas was on my side and after a short discussion everyone was on my side. Everyone except Billie.

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Billies POV

I cant believe she said that. Now everyone's on board. Damn. I don't have remorse for anyone.....but Kiarah, she's different, she makes me feel something and I kinda care for her. We're in the room and I have to say something about this. I can't hold it in. The decision is up to me. There's only one way this is going.

"Okay."

"Okay what Billie."

"You'll get jumped into the gang. But we have to go through some things first."

"Oh my god! I only said that because I thought you were gonna say no. I don't wanna get jumped into a gang." She sounded scared and almost angry.

"This isn't a fucking joke anymore Kiarah. If you were joking you should have said that shit when we were downstairs. It's to late, your dumbass got everyone on board. So now you have to do this." I snapped. This shit is something else.

"There's no way out of this, is there." She sighed.

"Nope. Not this one."

I used the words good and mood a lot. Lol. 😂 This is a long chapter but I hope you like it.😁
Pls keep asking for more this is the only thing that makes me happy these days 🥺😭and I want to share it.
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