WHY ME

I Fucked Up

Kiarah's POV

I woke up to the smell of vanilla and coconut. Billie smelt like a vacation. She laid there peacefully, and I didn't want to wake her in fear of getting in trouble. I laid there stiff thinking of my life before this. My parents hated me for being gay, I think that's why there away all the time. My dad called me an abomination and my mom said I would burn in hell when I came out to them. I hated them and it made me think that I never wanna go back. But I do remember one good thing, my best friend Olivia. I've known her since pre school, she was my ride or die and I miss her very much. We use to run around the town being stupid and acting like we owned the place. We would have a routine, every weekend we'd go shopping then get lunch and our favorite ice cream. God I missed her. I feel my smile growing thinking about her, and I feel a tear fall down my face. I didn't even notice I was crying. I quickly wipe my tears when I feel Billie start to awake.

"Good morning babygirl." She said with a raspy voice.
"Good morning." My voice cracks because off the crying.
"What's wrong."
"Nothing"I say wiping my tears away with a fake smile.
"Don't lie to me."She say sternly.
"I was thinking about my best friend, Olivia, and how ill never see her again." I sigh.

Billie sighs and rolls over to get off the bed. She walks to her desks and just sits there. I thought about saying something but the words never left my mouth. She taps a pen on the desk and then turns to me.

"Imma need for you to stop bitching over your past, cause your not seeing them. ANY of them again. You need to start focusing on your life here. With that attitude your never gonna be aloud out of the house. Do you understand me."
"But-"
"Kiarah. Do you understand me." She says raising her voice this time and Im fed up.
"You know what, NO, I don't understand and neither do you. You can't just take people from there life's and expect them to love and obey you. That's bullshit. I'm not gonna sit around like "omg Billie even though you kidnapped me I like totally want you and I just wanna stay here forever." Like who the fuck do you think I am."

I can tell she's shocked and angry, that makes me a little scared but I'm not a little bitch so I'm standing my ground. She gets up and walks towards me with a twitch in her eyebrow. She jumps over top of me holding me there.

"Liste-"
"Get off of me. You dumb bitch." I say a little shocked about my bravery. She slaps me with full force and I can feel the pain in my jaw.

"Ow." I say with a sob. I spit in here face not knowing what else to do. She stops and stares at me still having an angry look on her face. I'm shocked at what I just did. She lifts me off the bed and stands me up with her hand around my throat. As she chokes me i feel my body being lifting by her one hand making everything feel worse. Why the hell was she so strong. I began to choke on what little air I had left feeling my body go numb. Just as my eyes get heavier she releases me and I fall to the floor. As my lungs fill with air again she leaves the room and locks the door behind her leaving me to sob alone.

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The last three days have been hard. I haven't seen Billie since that day. Is she not coming back. Danielle fed me food and told me about how badly I fucked up as if I didn't know already. Is it weird to say that I miss Billie, even with the bruises around my neck. Wait, I'm not thinking straight. SHE ALMOST KILLED ME. In fact I hate her i want to go home. The sad thing is my parents aren't gonna be back for a while so they probably think I'm fine. Probably thinking I'm out with Olivia right now because it's Saturday....I think, I don't really know at this point. All I know is the suns going down and I'm really tired, so I lay down and fall asleep soon after.

Billies POV

I haven't been with Kiarah for a few days now. That's on her. I'm at her house because it's empty and quiet. I can't help but regret what I did but I'm standing my ground. She needs to learn respect if she wants to live. I do miss her though.

I decided to go back and I do just that. I walk in my room to see Kiarah sleeping. God she's cute. Her milk chocolate skin was beautiful and her hair is naturally curly and long. I didn't want to wake her so I get in some pjs and lay next to her falling asleep.

Kiarah's POV

I wake up to the familiar smell of vanilla and I'm shocked to see an arm wrapped around me.
"B-Billie?" my voice cracks
"Good morning mama's." She says holding me tighter. "I missed you."
"I missed you too. But where were you?"
"Your place. I needed somewhere quiet to clear my thoughts" I feel her sigh into my neck and moving my hair to see the fading bruises. "I'm sorry for hurting you, but you need to learn respect. If you pull that shit on anyone else in this house your dead. They won't hesitate to kill you. You understand."
"Yes Billie and I'm sorry too."

We sit in silence for a moment taking in the morning. It's bright and warm in here but Billie makes it warmer and comfortable.

"Get dressed." Billie says taping my thigh signaling me to move.
"Why, can't we just stay in bed."
"I can't take you shopping if we're in bed can I."
"Wait really...OMG. But why."
"Well no one knows your gone so I thought we'd go out and maybe see that friend of yours." My eyes glow wide.
"Okay, I can't wait."

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