I've been sitting on this beach alone for what feels like days.
....but I am over dramatic so it's been maybe a couple hours.
As I watched the waves crash into the sand right beneath my feet I looked to the side of me to see a young girl no more than 8 walking toward me.
"Hi my name is Amira! I am 6 years old and my mommy name is Amina Jackson! She's the strongest warrior on all the world!" She said with the biggest smile on her face.
It can't be ... I can't be
"She is?" I asked as tears started to fall down my face.
"Yes!" She said smiling hard as ever. "I'm proud to call you my mommy and I can't wait till we can spend forever together but you have to go home!"
She grabbed both my hands and started to walk me away from the water.
"You have to meet Sir and Sincere they are quite the trouble makers always touching something!" She chuckled before looking up at me with those big brown eyes. That captured the sun in its reflection giving the look of honey.
"Am I dead?" I asked scared of the answer.
"No mommy your not dead!" She laughed as if I wasn't tLking to the spirit of my daughter that was taken from me. "Almost but not yet that's why I call you a warrior!"
I put my hand on her face rubbing the pad of my thumb across her cheeks as her brown curly hair blew around in the breeze.
"Mommy I can't keep you much longer I have to get back or else there wouldn't be any more pudding left and I'll have to eat Nutella. Yuck!" She spoke sticking her tongue out making me laugh.
I squat down in front of her, "I love you Amira." I kissed both of her cheeks and pulled her close to me.
"Wait I have to ask this question have you met anyone named Tooka yet ?" I was dead serious I wanted to know. What did he do to make these niggas so mad.
"He's really quiet he doesn't talk much he just sits alone and watches the streets of Chicago never really visits or watch anywhere else he showed me everyone. He only smiles when he talks about the people who keeps his name alive." She explained to me.
"Oh and mommy. Mean old lady was sent down to the fire her and her husband." She shook her head as she explained to me how my mother and step father were sent to hell for everything they did to me.
She showed me the marked on her legs and stomach that were caused from them beating me while I was pregnant with her. I rubbed them as tears came to my eyes.
"I'm sorry I'm so so so sorry." I cried more as she gave me a hug.
"It's not your fault I'm fine now! But I have to go get going... the pudding mommy I can't miss that chocolate pudding." She started to run off into the water.
Where the picture of her began to fade and the shadow of her was gone.
Amira... Amira....
My sweet guardian Angel Amira.
"You think she can hear me?"
"Ohh we curse?"
"No you cannot curse"
"Well shit."
"Ooouuu shit she curse!!!!"
"Poot them over there fucking cursing!"
"How you gonna curse and snitch on them for cursing?"
"You in my business ya....don't do that!"
Ima beat all y'all asses! I don't know where they get that shi- nvm.
I opened my eyes but quickly slammed them back closed due to the bright lights.
Once my eyes adjusted to the light I looked over to my side to see Amir, Izzy and amour on my bed with their stuffed animals.
While the new born babies bassinets sat on the side of the bed.
Looking up I saw pooter on his phone and chino trying to scrub makeup off his face....
"That better not be my new fenty beauty PRO FILT'R SOFT MATTE LONGWEAR FOUNDATION!!!" I spoke causing everyone's head to snap my direction I felt a tear drop from my eyes ... "it's not even your color!!!"
"She has all these shades and you still picked the wrong one I'll be expextimg 4 new foundations with Thea thing bronzers and brushes to be on my dresser by Tuesday." I spoke whipping the fresh tears from my cheeks.
"Mommy!!!" They jumped up excitedly coming over to hug me and give me sticky wet kisses.
"Mommy uncle Lee say we naming the babies boy and girl from the movie!"she said with a smile.
"No the fuck we not." I mumbled looking around... "Where is lee, capo,ant....where is everyone most importantly where is snipped?"
Snipper isn't here that can only mean one thing time cut short drill.
Wait on me I want to do black Air Force activities tooo!
"They went to get something to eat they on they way back now." He spoke not looking up from his phone
He lying.
I gave a simple nod.
I looked at my two beautiful babies welcome to the world Sincere and Sir Jackson ❤️.
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I think about this post everyday😂😂☝️
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