Saiouma one shots *SLOW UPDATES*

🌶️ I'm silenced

(kokichi pov)

I sat on my bed my head hanging down not being able to look at my board my eyes starting to blur my hair had gotten messy from pulling it and my body was bruised from slamming myslef against the wall I had calmed down a little but not as much as I would have wanted

I looked up at the camera knowing he was watching he knows what I do to myself but non the less he just watches I pulled myslef up sticking my middle finger up still shaking quite a bit I looked in the mirror seeing my face

Not liking the sight I pulled out some pieces of news paper and squirted a bit of water on the mirror and putting the paper up to cover the mirror I sighed looking around seeing the damage I had done to my room this time seeing lots of random paper scattered everywhere along with pencils and pictures of our classmates with ripped up pieces of wallpaper along with some of my hair

"I really cut it" I mumbled feeling my uneven hair I was very irritated my anger building up again as I kicked the wall I looked back up to the camera I could feel monokuma's smirk through it I felt the need to yell "DO YOU ENJOY THIS???" "DO YOU LIKE WATCHING ME SUFFER OH YOU LOVE IT DON'T YOU!!!!"

my lungs were tired from all of my previous loud crying and yelling so I soon stopped huffing for breath my chest hurt I was pained and not able to say anything

A man's life that is not needed that's my one label not ultimate supreme leader not ouma not the leader of dice not a king not a jester not even the pawn if anything

I was the palying board- the one thing needed to play only for the soul purpose of being stomped on walked all over a fighting field for any other person yeah that's me

I looked over at my desk seeing a picture of shuichi he was the only person I trusted but I only needed one thing...

His hatred I need him to hate my to despise me from the bottom of his heart I already have everyone else on hook line and string I'm alone and I always will be I can't help but be alone nothing really mattered anymore if my plan didn't work everyone else could possibly die and I don't want that I just need someone to help me execute it I could get saihara cha- no....

I can't he'll just try to talk me out of it or it would be to painful for me and he would end up dying if this plan fails who kibo?

Possibly but- I doubt he'd even want to maki yes she could do surely! But... Then she'd die but she's an assassin so it wouldn't matt- kaito no he'd be hurt I don't know what can I do every action has a consequence ah miu she would surely- I don't actually know if she actually hates me though so not my best option

So that leaves me with...kaito he'll do right?
Yeah right now he's my best option so-

"Everyone come to the cafeteria you all have a new motive!!!"

My breath got caught in my throat as my entire mind and body stilled and I heaved my self forward tidying myself up real quick before I went out making sure my eyes weren't red I slipped out and started to head towards the cafeteria seeing miu and maki heading towards there I took a deep breath looking at monokuma he smirked at me before turning his attention back to motive I saw shuichi I quickly directed my attention to monokuma though as he started to announce to motive

"The new motive will be everyone's personal life and backstory's will be revealed if no one is killed in 1 week!!"

My eyes widened there was no way he could just- but my personal life is- no no no they can't see me in such a weak state there's got to be something I can do....

But I can't ki- what if I kill someone but i don't do it...someone just needs to die right...

Miu...but I can't kill her I need someone else to how

(Obviously the 4th class trial yada yada adios)

"Your alone kokichi and you always will be" finally I can feel his hate he hates me haha finally FINALLY but it doesn't feel as victorious as I thought it would feel but it's fine now I can finally exacute my plan with no boundaries no one in the way I walked out of the trial room but I couldn't stop the tears everyone hates me I accomplished what I wanted so

Why does it hurt so bad I stumbled to my bed slamming the door and quickly covering the camera in my room my frustration quickly building up like it usually does but it was worse this time I picked up my chair and threw it as I started screaming

I started to break my pencils throwing them against the wall as I started kicking my desk picking up the mirror on the wall and throwing it hearing the glass shatter his tears just kept coming and i couldn't stop them from flowing down my cheeks

I took chunks of my hair into my hands desperately pulling on my hair slamming myslef into the wall and punching my head as I slowly started to lean against the wall and slide down it "it hurts so bad" it was almost in audible from what i could hear over the ringing of my ears I was having trouble breathing now as I closed my eyes trying to recall what shuichi's voice sounded like trying to only focus on good things he's said to me the only thing I was missing were the words "I love you... kokichi" my crying started to slow down at least "please saihara I need you..." I can't wait I really can't wait till I die

My release my freedom but I don't believe in gonna end up where I want to I can never be forgiven I truly feel bad and appreciate the people who can forgive someone like me 

(Time skip)

Saihara... It only hurt for a moment just a moment but it's cold and I feel wet a metallic smell? It smells like blood... Just blood is that what the wetness is?

But I'm dead I shouldn't feel anything can I move? I tried to lift my hand up oh feeling a small twitch in it

I started to open my eyes seeing it was dark and I couldn't see much around me I pulled myself up but my entire body hurt bad really bad but I just ignored my bodies plead to lie back down I saw how dark it was so I turned around seeing a small light as I started to head towards it I started to see pictures form so I stopped to look at them I saw me but it wasn't me-

It looked like me but younger and not as confident then I saw saihara but he was acting really weird we were in his house and he had Danganronpa themed sheets and clothing

I saw him dragging me to a Danganronpa sign up I always new I didn't sign up for danganronpa but still shuichi probably manipulated me seeing as how timid I was acting at how loving he was acting towards me

I sigh as I was brought back to my danganronpa memories I was extremely close to the light now I looked back on that moment shuichi wrapped my hand up in that bandage lifting my hand to look at it "if only..." I looked back up and once again headed to the light I looked at it for a moment hearing some whispering coming from it I touched it and everything immediately went blank

I felt like I was floating it was so warm so peaceful "ko" just go away I wanna be in peace "koki" it sounds like shuichi but he's not dead I'm probably just hallucinating "kokichi!" Shuichi  i'm sorry "kokichi ouma...I love you" tears started to form I was trying to keep my composure but it was so warm so peaceful everything felt so...happy

Maybe if I'm reborn I can find you again...for now let me be peaceful.... shuichi