Kaneki x Reader: You'll Always Be With Me

Chapter 4: Accidents happen....

I sat alone in my room with the lights off. The blanket was over my head and I sat there trembling. I did something I considered....regretful....It happened earlier. We were just sitting on the couch....things were going so well....

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"Kaneki, I could make you some ramen or something. I don't think coffee could fully satisfy your hunger....." We were sitting shoulder to shoulder. She smelled so nice....It got me hungry again, "......Kaneki? Is something wrong?" I was sniffing her hair too much. When I came back to my senses, my head was near her neck.

I pulled away, "No.....(Name) I think you should go soon....It's getting late....I could take care of myself, so you shouldn-" Then suddenly, I got this urge to devour her. I got up and walked away. (Name) got up as well, "Don't follow me."

"B-but-"

"(Name)! Don't follow me!" Kamashiro-san was just leaning against the wall enjoying the show. She kept telling me not to resist and to go all out. My eye turned black and red again....

"Kaneki, what's wrong? I just want to help you..." (Name) was walking closer, I could sense and smell her. Before she came into my room, I slammed the door in her face.

"IT WOULD HELP ME IF YOU DIDN'T COME NEAR ME! I TOLD YOU NOT TO FOLLOW ME! CAN'T YOU TELL?! I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE ANYMORE, SO GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HOUSE!" There was some silence. When it hit me, what I said to her....those awful words that came out of my mouth...I slid against the door with tears pouring down.

"If....that's how....no....If that's what you want....then I'll leave, I won't bother you anymore...."

I got up to go after her, but then I heard Rize's voice, "Hurry up! Don't let your food get away!" The door closed. She already left the house.

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Maybe it was for the best. If she wasn't near me, she wouldn't get hurt. I don't think she'd like a monster. I've become one and I can't let her know. Everyone is afraid of ghouls....I won't be able to see her smile again.....And so I stayed locked up in my house....I got so hungry....

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After a few days, I ended up taking a late night stroll. I kept my hood up. There was so many people....I looked around drooling, but I was so scared....So much flesh. Flesh everywhere, woman flesh, child flesh....All kinds of flesh. I gasped as people started avoiding me.....I was scaring them....

"Kaneki?" I heard a familiar voice. Out of all the opportunities to appear...she chooses now? When I turned, (Name) was there standing with a couple of bags. Frozen with my hood on, I gulped. She walked over so she could see my face, "Kaneki......" (Name) looked sad all of a sudden, "I'm sorry for whatever I did to upset you, but if you really don't want to be involved with me anymore....I understand." I remained silent. I didn't know what to do or say. I needed to tell her that I didn't mean what I said, but I wanted to eat her so badly...With no answer, she turned to leave.

"N-no!" (Name) looked at me alarmed as I grabbed her wrist. She had watery eyes, "....I didn't mean what I said. You shouldn't be apologizing. I should be the one to say sorry because I'm the one that yelled at you for no reason. So I jus-" She stopped me because I was talking too fast.

She smiled at bit. That relieved me, "It's alright...but you had me kind of worried....I thought you hated me..."

"I'm sorry..." I stood there with my head down, but I ended up in her embrace. This was good! She couldn't see the immense blush I had on my face.

"I'll be here for you now...You look so scared..." I couldn't tell her...my attention turned on her scent. It was so nice. It brought out how loving she could be. Drool was coming out of my mouth again. N-no....I need to stay away from her....but as hard as I tried, I couldn't resist......

(Name) let go and took my hand, "Nothing happened (Name)..." I kept my hood on and looked down.

"Alright...but I'm gonna walk you home. Are you hungry? We could grab a bite to eat." I tried to not to focus on hunger, but she just made it worseeeee....

"Yeah I'm hungry..." Hungry enough to eat you whole! She began leading me to the less crowded area. An area filled with darker places.....

"I'm gonna take us through a shortcut.." This was my chance! My heart began to race as I held onto her hand. I need to wait for the right moment....Then I could finally devour her! We walked through a dark alley and my hunger took control...."Kaneki, you okay? You've been silent fo-" I pushed her against the wall. She dropped her bags as I pinned her wrists, "K-Kaneki?!" I went closer to her face to get a better smell. She closed her eyes, squeezing them shut. My left eye turned again. I was breathing hard......I couldn't fight my instincts....

"Do it....this is your chance, you've finally caught her. She's yours and your only. Isn't that what you wanted?" Kamashiro-san was there again.

I laughed insanely, "I WANT TO DO IT! IT'S TRUE! I'VE WANTED THIS FOR AS LONG AS I CAN REMEMBER! I WON'T BE ALONE ANYMORE! I LOVE YOU, SO IT MUST BE OKAY!" Her eyes shot open in shock.

"Wait what are yo-" I opened my mouth big and inhaled. Finally, I bit into her shoulder, "AHHHHHH!" She kicked me back and slid down against the wall holding her shoulder. Her eyes were wide with fear. I could hear every breath that was released from her mouth. I glared at her, ".............This was what you were hiding?" It was silent for a really long time, it looked like she was thinking. (Name) calmed down and smiled, "Hey.......you don't have to be afraid anymore......That's why you yelled at me that day right? It's okay....I won't hate you....Not after all the kindness you've shown me.......It's nice to know that someone cares enough for me...Enough to love me." She held out her hand covered in blood and tilted her head a bit, "Are you satisfied?....Or are you still hungry? I don't mind..." I froze..... and I slowly became sane again.

I widened my eyes."N-no..............What did I just-" Falling to my knees I stared at my hands in fear. I could still taste her blood and flesh in my mouth.

"I-It's.............al...right...." Her eyes gradually became blank. (Name) collapsed. She lost too much blood! I quickly looked around. No, no, no! What do I do????

".......What happened here?" Panicked, I looked to where the voice came from. It was a girl with short and dark blue hair. I started crying.

"Please!..........Please help her......She's losing too much blood!" I scooted over to (Name). The girl processed the situation, and looked at the blood on my face.

She walked over, "Might as well just finish off eating her....She half dead already...." The girl is a ghoul too? She was maybe lured by the smell of blood.....I shook my head.

"No! You can't eat her! She's too precious of a person!" The girl glared at me and put a hand on her hip.

"Listen up kid, this girl is a liability.....For all we know, she could turn us in to the ghoul investigation team." I didn't listen to what she said. All I cared about was getting (Name) medical treatment.

"Please..........." She got really angry. The girl grabbed me by the hair and pulled me up so she could look me in the face.

"Aren't you paying attention? I sai-"

"Touka-chan, that's enough..."

We both looked in the same direction. Her tone changed, "B-but! Manager! She's human! And this boy is strange, he has only one eye...." The old man put one of his hands up to silence her.

"We help and support our fellow ghouls. If he wants to help this human, then let us do it. I don't think she'd say a word...." I sighed in relief.

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After, (Name) was treated by the old man............Did I tell her that I loved her?........