CHAPTER III
I tried to take a nap In my room and
I saw and I heard something on my soul and I notice that shadows are uncleared and worst,
In every time to try split my self on this miserable life.
All this things is so very unusual that gives me a pain
It is hard to sleep when the silence kill me in many ways
When I heard something in outside of my room I try to keep my sense,
And keep away from the beginning of these day and the reality was stressed and less reasons to make me feel better now? But when? How?
I feel lonely and dulled everytime I saw my self was broken,
and sometimes I try to end my life because their no reason to live this world,
Why we need to live ?
even though my family and My mother it's never been there for me in many different things on my life..
I don't think is't over and time to regreat,
That pain is still on my heart in over 140 to 16 days? And I'm still confused about what often happend to me even days or years ,
I don't know what to do and how to escape this unfair life.
And when I get a good reason to stay with the Smile? How and When will the opportunity come for the end of suffering? and what the hell is going? It is need to live or die?
I don't know how? Why is't timeless and worst ........
I'm done with this! But being silent wasn't enough for me to pretend??
If I okay or not? Am I deft?? Or heartless?
My mind wasn't work and still buffering in this situation.
I'am so tired ....
Why god is always hurt me so? It is course or destined?
It is a part of being human oh is't true ?
It is weird? Or stupid thing that ever happened again? And try to right the way?....
Do you think it is pretty moment to say that life is good? How's life treating me like this it is a awful and worthless piece of paper that need to throw into trash can.
Silence make me feel uncomfortable and unsual sense?
How is't hard for me? To let it go
Or let me know how and why am here to suffer from the start until the end of the lines?
I'm still drowning in death sea of my life ..........
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