Edric Blight x Lime

Push the feeling aways

Edric pov

I quickly grab my notebook, sling my bag over my shoulder, and walk out of the classroom. I hope that Lime doesn’t dislike me after I left like that. I want to be his friend, I just don’t know why my brain keeps betraying me. I have to be perfect, mom and dad expect me to be perfect so I have to be. Mom and dad didn’t react well when Amity told them about Luz and Emira doesn’t plan on telling them about Viney anytime soon. Hell when Amity was younger mom was so upset that she had brown hair and dyed it green to match us. I don’t want to disappoint them, who knows what they would do to me. Maybe it’s best to stay away from Lime, but then again we can just be friends. I don’t like him like that, I just want to be his friend that’s all, yeah just friends. 
The rest of the school day went by pretty fast. I didn’t have any other classes with Lime and I was relieved, but I couldn’t help but kind of miss him. When walking out of the school I heard someone behind me shout my name followed by the sound of someone running. I turn around to see who it is and it just so happens to be Lime. “Hey Edric! How were the rest of your classes?” he says as we start to walk out of the school together now. “The rest of my classes were okay. How about you Lime? How was your first day at Hexside?” I say trying to push away the thoughts my brain kept betraying me with. “My day was good! I liked my classes, most of the teachers were nice, and-OH I think I met your sister!” he says. “I’m glad the rest of your day was good. What do you mean by you think you met my sister? And which one?” I say genuinely wanting to know. “Uhhmm I think her name was Emira. We have 3rd period together and she said she’s your sister. But I didn't know if she was joking or not.” he says recalling his memory. “Oh yeah, that’s my twin sister. I have a younger sister that goes to Hexside also, her name is Amity.” I say trying my best to not overshare. “Oh I wouldn’t have guessed you’re a twin. I’ve heard about Amity, this girl Luz told me about her.” he said. “ Yeah Luz is Amity's girlfriend.” I said with a smile. “Aww that’s cute, I’m happy for them.” he said with a bright smile. “Yeah I am too, Luz truly makes Amity happy. Emira also has a girlfriend, she is dating a girl named Viney.” I say being happy for my sisters. “Awww that is adorable. I hope that I find someone like that someday.” he says with a smile. “I’m sure you will Lime, you’re a good person.” I say smiling at him. “Thanks Edric, you’re a good person too. I just hope the guy I marry is a wonderful person and we make eachother happy.” he said smiling at me. “O-oh you like guys?” I say trying to force myself to not blush. “Oh yeah I do, I’m gay. Are you okay with that? I understand if you don’t want to be my friend anymore.” he says worryingly. “No no Lime don’t worry, I am okay with you being gay. I still want to be your friend.” I said and gave him a hug. He hugged me back and my face got very warm. The hug distracted me so all the thoughts I had been forcing back flooded into my head. I let go of him and said “S-sorry Lime I gotta go! See you tomorrow!” waved at him and then ran home.
I feel bad for leaving him like that but I can’t be having these thoughts. I want to be his friend so badly, but I can’t if I keep having these thoughts. I decided to go and do some homework in my room, I didn’t get much done because thoughts of Lime kept coming into my head though. Why! Why do I have to have these thoughts?! It’s not okay for me to be thinking about him this way! I hold my knees and start to sob into them. It’s not normal. I have to be normal. I just have to just force these feelings away and it will be okay.