Alexander's POV
We got into the carriage and wished our families goodbye, John looked a little uncomfortable with Martha. Though, she also looked uncomfortable kissing him goodbye. That was a little strange to it, but I tried not to think about it too much.
"Johny?~" he sighed and looked at me, "yes my Alexander?" "Do you wanna..? Y'know~" he shook his head and I kissed his cheek. Eliza told me that if she said that she didn't want to do something sexual with me, we wouldn't do it. I always respected her wishes, and I will always respect John's
I know others would say that makes me less a man, but if I did so I know my loved ones wouldn't see me as a man. Eliza has always been gentle with me, and has made me more domestic. I'm so thankful she's in my life, but of course I treasure John as well.
I love them both dearly, but of course there's differences. But no matter, I'm happy sitting next to my Lauren's and watching the views by his side.
John leaned on me "maybe later.. I'm going to rest for a bit." I nodded and combed my fingers through his hair while he slept. This was a quite moment, and though I tend to like more action and being active, I also enjoy these small moments I get. I'm grateful for every small moment I get with John...
(Sorry I haven't written in forever! I'm going to try to write more, I hope you enjoy!)
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A Little Secret (historical lams)
FanfictionI've always liked the ship lams, but the historical version always felt best to me. I see a lot of stories where they frame John as "gay turtle boi" and as much as I love him- I like the real him best. So basically this is more of a historical lams...
