TW- under aged smoking, self harm, suicide. don't read if this will trigger you
sero's pov
i open the door the my dorm i close it carefully behind me effectively not making a sound. some habits never fade. as i change into my sweatshirt i try and fail to ignore the scars lining my arms, some of the scars where old from years ago some of them where new, from just last week. i was trying to stay clean. but its hard. i sit down on my bed and pull a pack of cigarettes out of the top drawer of my bedside table. damn when did shit get this bad. i put the cigarette up to my mouth and take a long inhale. it helps me calm down, i know it not good but.... its better then some of the other options. after the cigarette burns out i shove it in a small glass box under my bed with the rest of the cigarette butts. i glance out my window to see the sun setting, its really beautiful. i bet it would look better from up on the roof...
i climb the steps up to the last story of the dorms, i'm pretty sure i'm the only one who knows how to get up on the roof. i check both ways down the hallways before ducking into the janitors closet. at the back there's a small trapdoor attached to the ceiling. i jump up and grab the handle pulling the trapdoor open instantly backing away as a ladder come clattering down stopping just a inch away from the floor. i cautiously climb up the ladder as i reach the top of the ladder i slam my hand against the rusted trapdoor on the roof eventually busting it open. as i step out of the safety of the building i am instantly met with a gust of freezing air, stumbling backwards i regain balance and walk towards the edge. the sky line of japan is so beautiful, the colors mixed like water color. a small smile rises onto my face and a sit down, legs dangling over the edge. UA had really made my life so much better, especially after the dorms where put in. i got to escape my family. they... weren't the nicest. normally i really like the quite but recently the silence always brought bad thoughts, now was one of those times. the voices quickly filled my head
worthless
useless
stupid
creep
ew his smile
fuck up
i curl my legs up to my chest my hands involuntarily grabbing my head pulling my hair. my sight blurring as tears start falling down my cheeks. "fuck" i mutter frantically trying to get the thoughts out of my head. the tears stop after a while now i just feel numb... the sunset it now long over it was so dark i couldn't even see the ground...
jump
the word repeats inside my head
jump
jump
jump
jump
jump
jump
"GO AWAY!!!" i scream covering my ears, the lights of the dorms instantly flick on "fuckkk" i mumble this isn't good
jump
jump
jump
jump
my mind goes blank, i slowly shuffle towards the edge looking straight down into the dark nothingness. i bend down and remove my shoes and set them aside
jump
jump
jump
jump
"ok..." i mutter stepping of the building.
HELLO AUTHOR HERE!! sorry i haven't been writing lately but i'll try to get a better writing schedule!
ANYWAYS I LOVE YOU ALL STAY SAFE BYE~
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mha angst one shots
Fanfictionso pretty much ill be writing this whenever i don't really have a update schedule so good. Obviously all characters go to the creator of my hero academia.
