scopaesthesia 🌦 lee jeno

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Mishil couldn't get any sleep last night, not only was she stressing over Seojun's confession but instead of sleep paralysis she had a nightmare that continued to haunt her

She walked to school way earlier than she usually did and rested in the classroom but then continued to be waken up by the nightmare

Minsoo and Seolmi realized immediately that something was wrong, yes there are days that Mishil is like a zombie but this was different

Seojun arrived in a hoodie over his uniform and slightly red eyes. He arrived around the same time that Renjun did. 

He sat down and greeted the three of them, clearly the mood around them wasn't as playful as it usually was

Minsoo and Seolmi exchanged a look before working on the papers they had on their desk

Clearly people in that side of the room that they were seated on could feel the mood shift, and that, was never good

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The lunch was passed quickly, no one staying at the table for long. She sat upon the roof top of the school, her legs hanging between the railing

She looked off on the scenery, the clouds and the sky making a beautiful mixture. A low sigh emitted from her lips

She couldn't stop thinking back to yesterday, it was her fault, it always was. If she knew sooner would the outcome be different?

She checked her phone and started heading down back to the classroom, she was then greeted with Jaemin having an arm wrestling contest with the other guys in class

"Uhm, what's happening?" she asked Renjun

"Honestly, I do not know either, I entered the classroom maybe 27 seconds ago so I'm not exactly sure"

Mishil slowly nodded taking a seat in her chair. As the teacher entered the room the more her brain fuzzed out

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She entered the empty house, her parents still not home from their business flight. She changed into some decent clothes and headed to sleep early

Her vision slowly faded into the third person view, Jeno was already seated there waiting

"Hi- wait.. Why is it so sad in here? Did something happen?" he asked worriedly

U-uh well my b-best friend..? He confessed to me about his feelings and then he told me how it's not my fault and I just kept wondering if I knew sooner that-

"No matter what, if you knew or not, it's not gonna change. You knowing or not is not gonna change the fact that you don't like him the same"

A-and then earlier today I could see that his eyes were red from crying, and I know that's my f-fault.. A-and we feel so d-distant I don't think we k-know each other anymore..

"It's what happens sometimes. A feeling that isn't mutual, it'll ruin friendships for a bit but that doesn't mean you can't repair it"

"How about we talk about something else, like how you get to see me tomorrow morning" he said, a slight tone of excitement in the mix

A-already? O-oh wow we're gonna see each other for the first time 

She could see a nod from the shadow of Jeno, "I'll uhh. I'll comfort you over the whole best friend business when I get there in the morning"

A-ah okay I'd like that

"I'm gonna go now okay?" he asked before getting a response on her end

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please save me