Suffer

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My thoughts dig into my brain
Rising
Unafraid
I can't do anything about them
So once again
I'm in pain
I can't tell anyone about this
Time to put on a happy face
I'm like a flower
With an empty vase
Time to erase
As the hours pass on
Going into the night
I think of you and my family
Oh, what a sight
I decided not to tell you
Fighting back the tears
My thoughts bite
And now..
...............

I'm okay
I'm fine
Doing alright
Doing well
These are lies I tell myself
Inside and outside the night
But nothing seems real
They only say "it's ight"
I try to talk
About what i feel
But they leave.
................
I'm a burden
I'm annoying
I can't express
Crumbling and falling to my knees
I need a sort of access
Yet this feeling in my gut
It just won't go away
All the butterflies have died
I tried
But it's delayed
Everyday's a little harder
My thought pierce through my skull
As if I'm nothing
No bones
No skin
Nothing to anyone at all.
....................
I can't reach
It isn't real
All I feel
All I see
Yet something so simple as
"It's no big deal"
Can break me
As if I'm just a piece of glass
Shattered yet untouched
Bleeding and uncut
Just my luck.
..............
The vase just broke
The water spilled onto the floor
Yet clear liquid
Didn't even touch the core
I need to shut up
I need to isolate myself from the rest
But something pulls
The scissors
They're right next to the door
I can shut myself inside
Lock it all out
Smile brightly for others
Throw the key to the floor
Before I break......
Once more

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⏰ Last updated: Nov 04, 2020 ⏰

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