to be or not to be| sixth year | draco malfoy

the greatest destroyer of all

"i've lost everything i felt for you. you were brutal."
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We sat in the common rooms since our dorm was destroyed. I sat on the leather couch, clutching my knees trying to regulate my breathing. Camille and Abigail sat on either side of me. I told them everything that happened just an hour ago.

"I didn't know what that spell could do. I just said it in a state of panic. I was so worried about my own feelings and if he was going to kill me, then just speaking with him normally. I didn't mean to hurt him... I don't want to hurt him. And when I saw him lying there... on the ground... crying in pain... it felt like I was dying... all over again." I said with tears pouring down my face.

"Maybe it wasn't that bad. You just said it in the heat of the moment." Abigail said. I turned my head to look at her with a serious expression.

"No, Abigail, I could have killed him!" I said with a sudden anger in my tone. Abigail looked at me with a bit of surprise on her face. I looked away from her and back at the fire.

"I could have given him my blood. But I was so stupid I just left him with Snape." I choked up to say. "He'll never forgive me." I whispered. The necklace on me glowed a soft white and pink. The pain in my heart spread like a rapid wildfire. I sniffled before burying my head in my arms. I felt a hand being placed on my shoulders.

"Maybe you could visit him in the infirmary tomorrow? You could get some candies and see if he's alright." Abigail said. I lifted my head from my arms and looked at her. That was indeed a good idea, but he wouldn't want to see me after that.

"And you could apologize as well. Even with everything going on." Camille added. I wiped my tears. I suddenly see Abigail hold up the potions book, I left it in the grand hall so that's where they probably got it.

"And you need to get rid of this... today." Abigail said with a serious tone. She's right. I stood up from my seat and took the book from her hand.

"Great. I'll burn it." I said with a hint of anger in my voice. I turned towards the fireplace before throwing the book in without hesitation. The book began to char. I turned to look at the girls.

"I'll tell Professor McGonagall about our dorms." Abigail said before standing to her feet and walking out the common rooms. Camille sighed before looking at me.

"You need some sleep. After McGonagall fixes the dorms you need to rest." Camille said. I nodded before sitting back down onto the couch.

*

Once the dorms were completely fixed we were left with quite a bare looking room. I felt terrible that Abby and Cammy had lost things in that fire. But they told me that it was only old clothes and school books. I offered to pay for everything that got burned.

I finally had gotten sleep... well if you could call five hours of sleep... really sleep. I woke up the next day, since there weren't any classes I could just go straight to the infirmary. Camille had gone to Diagon Alley and bought an arm full of candies and gave them to me.

I stuffed them inside of my brown satchel and I quickly got dressed for the day. I immediately walked out of the common rooms and towards the infirmary. I didn't care if he had an order to kill me right now. I hurt him when using the sectumsempra spell and I needed to apologize for it.

I turned a corner and spotted the open infirmary doors. I breathed out before beginning to walk inside but, I quickly stopped in my tracks. I saw Draco sitting up in bed talking with Pansy, who sat on the other side. She held his hand comfortingly. I heard her giggles from the entrance door and I felt a lump in my throat. This was a new feeling that went through me something unlike I ever felt before.