Fallen Angel

Home sweet Home

It was a long silent drive to my parents house. I travelled the whole 90 minutes in silence, followed by the revving sound of the engine.

Numerous thoughts, exercised all through my mind simultaneously, with no end. I hadn't noticed how detached I was from reality because before I knew it, I was parked up in their driveway.

I love their place , it always has a calm and serene ambience. Wasn't too big or cramped; moderate but homey and comfortable, like a real home.

I snapped out of my trance, looking up at mum who was already standing in the front entrance.

Making my way out the car, she came immediately greeting me with the warmest embrace that her petite frail frame could give. It was comforting, like she knew the kind of medicine my heart needed.

We remained in the hug for another minute and as we separated, an exhausted sigh escaped my chest. Tears tried to fighting their way out of my eyes, but I won against them. Not yet.

Dad came out also giving me a hug, and helped grab our things out the car and into my old room. It was no longer the same since, years had gone by from when I got married and moved out to live with Ebenezar, it now became a guest room.

Mummy had bought a bassinet for the baby and put it in the room for me, the place was already prepared for our stay.

"Oh baby I know how hard this must all be for you" she said entering the room with sadness in her eyes.

"Go shower, then come downstairs for some dinner before you sleep" she suggested leaving the room.

"Okay, mummy" I Obeid. As she closed the door walking down the steps, I made my way into the bathroom.

I took a long 45 minutes in the shower, thinking, crying and praying; it was all so much for me to process.

Finally deciding that I was going to stay apart from Ebenezar for 2 weeks and on the fourteenth day I'll return back home, to allow Ebenezar to explain everything if  he is willing to sort the whole situation out and  hopefully start a fresh new chapter in our marriage.

Walking back into the room, I got dressed into my pyjamas and  night gown then made my way back downstairs.

As I entered the kitchen, I saw that Israel was already up and in grandma's arms, starring blankly at her.

"Sit down and eat baby, you're exhasted" she said as I sat in a chair on the dinning table.

She made my favourite food, chicken stew with rice and fried plantain on the side.

"Thank you mama, the food looks delicious" I said quietly.

"I wanted to make something you liked just to cheer you up a little" she said with a small innocent smile.

I began eating off the huge plate of food she prepared.

Even though I'd lost my appetite I still managed to eat it all.

"I'm going to stay with Israel tonight, so you can get some rest. I'll wash him up and feed him so don't you worry about anything as of right now okay baby"? She said assuringly.

"Thank you mum, you don't know how much this means to me" I replied almost shedding a tear. 

After finishing my meal, my body became weak, indicating that it was time to rest.

It was different not laying down with Ebe beside me or cuddling up with each other. Usually whenever we would bicker, we made up before we went to sleep, however this evening was different.

I held no resentment towards Ebe but I was deeply hurt by him.

When we first met it was so magical and I instantly knew that he was the one, it was like 'love at first connection' and it was deep.

I'd never been in love with anyone in the past but when we started dating it was real, honest and true love.
But I guess it's true that you never truly know someone.

I understood that all males had tendencies that they played out, never excusing him to be different to them but I thought it was unlikely with him, I guess I was wrong.

{Delving deeper and deeper into my thoughts I drifted off to sleep}

It was the most soothing and relaxed rest I
ever had, I couldn't remember when I last had quality sleep. I think I need more of them

I hope you guys also enjoyed this chapter, I am soo new to this and everything. So please, please, please if there are areas that need changing some constructive criticism would be amazing thank you. See you guys soon. ❤️

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