Tortured Love (One direction Fanfic)

Chapter 55

a/n This chapter goes back to the events leading up to the end of the last chapter and past that

Harry's POV

I didn't feel the temperature of the water as it cascaded down my body although the steam floating around the room told me it was very hot. I could see the muscles straining under the skin as I leaned against the wall, the heat of the water not doing a thing to help me. I figured a shower would help with the pressure I was under but it just made me more frustrated. 

I grunted and stepped out, wrapping a towel around my waist. I got dressed and went into the kitchen, finding it empty. I looked at the time and realized McKenna and Niall were still asleep because it was 6:00 in the morning. I never got more then a few hours of sleep at night. The bed was too cold and the room was too silent. Did she feel the same? Was she awake right now because she found the bed too large without me in it?

I had to stop torturing myself with these questions.

I sighed and laid down on the couch, my mind going in circles. As usual, my head started to pound so I closed my eyes and, without meaning to, fell asleep. 

**

"Harry, mate," I felt a hand on my shoulder and I internally groaned. 

"What?" I whined, not opening my eyes.

"The lads and I thought it might be a good idea to have a guys night tonight. You in?" Niall offered, despite my state.

"I don't know, Niall," I trailed off. I didn't want to move from my spot on the couch. Spending my night with unanswered questions and self-loathing sounded fine to me. 

"Come on man, you haven't left the flat in days. It would do you some good," Niall pressed and I knew he wasn't going to take no for an answer. 

"Alright, fine. When?"

"In an hour," He answered happily and I could hear him texting on his phone. 

"What?" I opened my eyes and sat up a little. In an hour? Guys night usually happened in the evenings?

"It's 6:00pm?"

I checked my watch to confirm what Niall was telling me is true. Did I really just sleep for that long and uninterrupted at that? Wow, I knew I was tired but not that tired. But even after sleeping for an extra 11 hours, I still felt terrible. The ache in my body hadn't subsided and I still felt drained. Going out is not a good idea, I should have said I wasn't feeling up to it. 

"Look, Niall-" I started.

"No, nope, you are not backing out!" Niall walked away with his hands over his ears and I chuckled while shaking my head. I guess spending some time away from this place would do me good. I would also have something to tell Dr. Owen and she'd say it's 'progress'. It would also help me cover the fact that I didn't so what she'd said and called my Mum. 

The hour went by fast and before I knew it, Liam was at the door telling me to get my arse in the car already. We all piled into one vehicle and we went to a club that I'd never heard of before. The music was loud, pulsing so hard I could feel it throughout my body, and there were a lot of swaying bodies grinding on the dance floor. 

I could picture bringing Charlie here. She'd look so sexy in some dress that showed just the right amount of skin. We'd start off with a few drinks until she'd drag me to the dance floor. I'd protest but really, I wanted to feel her body moving against mine in time with the music. I would whisper something in her ear and I'd relish in the tiny gasp that would escape her mouth and the blush painting her cheeks. She would look absolutely stunning and she'd be all mine.