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I woke up and I was so happy for some reason.

I haven't meditated in a long time but it was helping with my anxiety.

I went into the bathroom and looked at myself in my mirror. One thing I loved about myself was my skin color.

I just loved it. I loved how dark it was. I get my hair done today. Probaly my last time cause that corona shit spreading.

I brushed my teeth and washed my face and put on my make up. I didn't have anywhere to go today.

I just wanted to look prettty. What am I so happy for?

I smiled to myself and threw something simple on.

I headed out the door and was ready to go. My father was at work.

...

I was finally finished with getting my hair done and I looked in the mirror and smiled.

I loved it.

I handed her the money. "Thank you." I said softly.

"No problem." She told me and I left out and got in my car.

I heard my phone ringing and it was sleezy. He wanted to FaceTime and I answered.

"Good morning." I told him and he looked at me and smiled.

"You think you the shit now that you got yo hair done?" He asked and I rolled my eyes.

So fucking annoying.

"No I don't bitch. Actually, I been the shit. So come correct or be corrected." I told him.

I always added a little attitude to my sentences when I got my hair done. I don't know I just be feeling like, I have to do it.

"Shaking my head. I need you to stop by my house. I got something i want to talk to you about. Oh and if Ian there when you get there just stay there until I come. Something probably came up."

This must be important. "Ight." I said hanging up and I drove to his house.

And guess what this nigga wasn't there. Something always got come up.

He left the door open for me. I went inside closing it behind me.

Nobody was here. I sat down on the couch and took my shoes off making myself comfortable. I used to live here when my father used to work a lot so this was like my second home.

I turned on the tv, turning on spongebob. Sleezy was taking too long. Ugly asss.

I heard somebody beating on the door. I looked through the peep hole and it was nuski.

I opened the door and he came in. Tears filled his eyes and he just broke down crying. Blood was all over his shirt too.

He fell into my arms and I held him him looking outside. Nobody was out there. I held onto him and I could hear him crying.

He just kept repeating "Murda," Over and over again.

I closed the door. What the fuck happened? "You gotta tell me what happened. Ok?" I told him and he shook his head.

"I gotta go." He told me. "Go where?" I asked and he just kept crying.

I grabbed his arm taking him upstairs to the bathroom. I was so confused and h-he was crying.

What am I supposed to do? I looked at the blood on his shirt and it was all over his hands too. I grabbed his hands.

"You gotta take off this shirt." I told him and he sighed taking it off.

He rinsed the blood off his hands and I handed him a towel.

"You good?" I asked him and he looked in the mirror at himself and just continued to break down.

"Is it ok if I call sleezy?" I asked and he looked at me. "Yea, can I talk to him?" He asked and I nodded my head and I called him.

"Nuski wanna talk to you sleezy." I told him and I handed him the phone closing the door.

I waited until he was done and once he was he handed me my phone and went into sleezy room closing the door behind him.

I texted nene.

Me: so I was at sleezy house waiting on him and nuski came in with blood all over him and he was crying so hard nene. I feel so bad and Ian even did nothing.

Nene: what I tell you Jei? Something gotta be wrong.

Me: I know. He in sleezy room right now. I think one of his friends died and I don't wanna bother him. I'm scared imma get yelled at.

Nene: you should talk to him or something. He obviously ain't coping with the shit right.

Me: ok but if I get yelled at that's on you.

Nene: girl go talk to him😂.

I put my phone in my pocket and knocked on the door.

He opened it up and I walked in. Ok so maybe he does want to talk.

"Do you want to tell me what happened?" I asked softly and he shook his head no.

"Ok I was just checking on you. If you need me I'll be downstairs...watching spongebob." I told him leaving out and he smiled.

He closed the door and I smiled. At least I made him smile. That's a start isn't it?

Me: he said he didn't want to talk but I did make him smile🥺.

Nene: See look, you doing good👏🏽

Me: hush. You was just telling me to stay away from him🌚.

I smiled going downstairs continuing with my spongebob. The episode where they delivered pizza was on.

I was laying down on the couch for a while and I heard foot steps. I looked at the steps and it was nuski. He had on a shirt now.

He got him a cup of water and walked over to me and drunk it. He looked at me then at the tv and shook his head.

"Wanna watch?" I asked and he looked at me for a minute.

"Yea." He said sitting his cup down. He sat down next to me and I sat up.

"Are you ok?" I asked and he sighed.

"Yea." He told me. "Reallyyyyyy? I know we barely know each other but you don't have to lie." I said

"And What you gone do if I'm not ok?" He asked and I smiled.

"That's easy. I'll do Whatever makes you happy if that doesn't work you can just be patient, time is key-

I heard the door open and it was sleezy. He looked at me then at nuski and sighed heavily.

"Jei I need to talk to you."