Not Good Enough [BakuKami]

Banished from the Group

Kaminari stared at his phone not yet ready to get out of bed and ready for school. He read through the group chat messages he'd missed the night before, it seemed they were planing an outing that weekend.

Pikachu: Can I go too?

He sent the message then regreted it, already knowing the answer. There was silence for a few minutes, probably because Bakugou was likely the only one up this early then the three dots appeared, disappeared, and reappeared.

Blasty: No

Kaminari sighs putting his phone down and finally pulled himself out of bed. He pulled on his uniform, finished the last question on his math homework and shoved the paper in his bag. He picked up his phone to see if anyone else was up. 'Weird.' He thought seeong no notifications until he unlocked the device to see no more Bakusquad group chat.

'You've been removed from the Bakusquad' flashed on his screen a few times before he hit okay. He put his head in his hands and desperately wanted to cry. He didn't know what to do anymore if he showed up to class he'd be lonely if he stayed in his room the teachers would worry. "Why'd you have to open your big mouth?" He whined to himself, he got up flinging his bag over his shoulder. He left his room to sit on the couch his bag held to his chest, he left his phone in his room knowing he'd no longer needed.

Kaminari looked over as Kirishima sits down next to him, he opens his mouth to talk to him but just looks away as Bakugou came down the stairs. He didn't have friends anymore and he needed to just accept that. The he remembered Shinsou, he gets to sit with him at lunch, that brought a smile to his face. He could look foward to lunch it was just the rest of the time he'd be miserable and that was alright with him.

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The lunch bell rang and he was out the door all but running to the cafeteria. Kaminari sat down at the table and waited excitedly for Shinsou. Shinsou never came, he looked around to see Shinsou sitting with the Bakusquad.

Kaminari lowered his head getting up and going back to the classroom. He sat down at his desk, laying his head down with his arms crossed. Aizawa was shocked to see the usual happy teen crying at his desk. He walks over to him gently puts his hand on his back. "Hey? What's wrong?" He asks lightly rubbing his back in a soothing motion. "Nothing." The utter brokenness of just one word made the man look toward the door, hoping for someone that was better at this to walk through.

"I can tell it's not nothing so just spill." He says sitting in the desk next to him and crossing his arms. Kaminari lifts his head to look at him slightly. "Where do I begin? Oh how about I've been completely ignored by all my friends simply because I got a crush on Bakugou. I didn't know being gay was that fucking bad!" His voice only raised in volume as he contuined to talk. "I'm already dealing with a lot at home and now this, plus I thought at least Shinsou would stay my friend but no! He joined the ditch Denki train with everybody else! He's taken my seat at the Bakusquad table, he doesn't even want friend and he's still picking people over me!" Kaminari huffs sounding more like a bull blowing air than an upset highschooler. "Even Midoriya! Midoriya! Doesn't like me I can see it when he looks at me because I've been trying to hang out with him and his friends. Kirishima won't even look at me! I thought he was my best friend." He laid his head back down on the table and looked away from the baffled teacher. "Guess not." He whimpered the last two words before sniffling.

"I just want a friend." He mutters quietly not looking back to the teacher. "Just one." He draws a tiny circle on tbe desk with his finger. "I'd settle for someone to talk to."

"How about you go back to the dorms for the rest of today if you want?" Aizawa asks, it was obvious Kaminari didnt want to be seen like this and the end of lunch would be soon. Kaminari nods his head packing up his stuff and getting a note that says he's allowed to leave.

A few people were coming back to class just as he was walking away from it, Idia had gone to stop him but decided not to. Something about the way Kaminari glanced over at him, the look of a broken man, unfathomable torment and sadness, the electric blonde was destroyed, completely and utterly destroyed, from the inside out.

He walked to the dorms, no one dared to stop him once they caught a glimpse of his expression, well expected for Yamada. The teacher had stopped him and was just handed the note to read. He closed his door, setting his bag down, he climbed into bed not caring about his uniform.

He felt empty. He was empty. There was nothing left but his dull and fading heart beat. Fading into the darkness that consumed him, ingolfed his sense and cradled his addiction to pain. One day it would be swallowed up and he knew on that day he'd draw his final breath.

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Walls, everywhere walls. He just kept walking into them. He was getting frustrated and wanted out of this ever changing maze. He was anger because every wall was covered in his ex friends mocking him or glaring, pretending he didn't exist or was nothing. He began to run not caring when he'd body slam into a wall with Kirishima sneer at him or Jirou laughing at his stupidity.

He only slammed on the breaks when Bakugou was on the wall in front of him. He stared and Bakugou stared back, there was silence between them before the ash blonde turned and looked down the hall to the left. A door was at the end of it but Kaminari didn't want to leave this room he wanted to stay with the moving image of Bakugou. He shook his head and moved away from the door, the door probably lead to more of everyone else.

The image pointed to the door urging him to go but Kaminari refused. "No I want to stay with you." He said looking at it, Bakugou only gestured to the door again. "I love you let me stay here." He pleaded with the image on the wall, a beeping coming from down the hallway. The Bakugou seemed to let out a breath then pointed to the right hallway, there was another door, a darker door.

"No I want to stay. Do you understand? I want to stay." He didn't want to be anywhere else, he was willing to endure anything Bakugou could do to him but the others not so much. He didn't care if he was treated like a rotten old dog by the man he just wanted to stay with him.

"Pick." Bakugou's voice echoed everywhere, but still Kaminari refused. "Please, please don't make me leave again." Denki whimpered on his knees now infront of the picture. "Don't make me leave." He cried softly as he put his head against the wall. The ones behind him seemed to move closer till it felt like he was being suffocated, if he didn't move he'd be crushed.

"Choose." Bakugou urged his voice sounding anxious. "Run." Kaminari did as told and ran for the left door, he flung it open.