I am contradictory
you see...i crave death
I long for it as a romantic longs for love
the sweet release my binding flesh
the freedom of my spirit and the amelioration of my pain
...but i long for change just as equally
i hope to be change
to embody that in my community
i am contradictory
in the sense that i crave death
just as equally as i crave to inspire
to be a modern day messiah to the masses
what is equilibrium then?
where do i meet myself?
a sadist?
a martyr?
or simply a contradiction?
-CJM
