After All These Years (Iwaoi)

All I Have to Offer

Iwaizumi screamed.

He screamed at the top of his lungs. He screamed and cursed at the stupid treasure hunt. His luck. His job. His life. But what he cried out for was time.

He wanted a refund.

He wanted 10 years back.

He wanted to take back his words.

He wanted....

He wanted the love of his life back.

....

5:56 am.

Eight minutes until sunrise.

Hajime slowly bent down to the piece of delicately carved stone sitting in place of who he should be embracing.

Here lies Tooru Oikawa.

Talented volleyball virtuoso, loving son, uncle, and friend.

June 20, 1996 - April 7, 2028

A year. The whole time. He had been....

Gone.

5:58 am.

Hajime took the small collection of letters out of his coat pocket and chucked them to the side of the riverbank. He slumped to the ground and wrapped his arm around the resting place of his beloved.

5:59 am.

He cried and sobbed and screamed for the world to take back the time it had stolen from him.

6:00.

6:01.

Iwaizumi unwrapped his arms from the headstone.

6:02. He saw a small envelope tucked under the corner.

He reached over and pulled it out gently, as not to disturb the grave. The red seal, dark red, engraved with a picture of a clock.

You dumbass, making fun of me even when you're gone. Iwaizumi laughed through the tears and mess on his face.

My love,

My dearest,

My sun, moon, and stars,

You found me.

What a cruel game of tag I've made you play, huh?

I stuck to the promise to not show my face to you again didn't I?

Iwaizumi sobbed and laughed all at once.

6:03.

Time was fragile.

Time was now stopped.

I want you to know that for all these years I've never blamed you for what happened to us. It was my fault for becoming petty and not reaching out, but I promise I've tried. I've known how ill I was getting for the past couple years. Doctors said I had a year max, but look at me going above and beyond like always right?

Hajime laughed an exhausted giggle.

Cancer. In my brain. Surgery was too risky. It was a waiting game.

Time is fragile. Oikawa was strong.

I didn't want you to see me like this. I have smile lines and I'm balding from chemo and I can barely keep saltines down. But I love you all the same.

I know you didn't mean it all those years ago. I know you were upset and we weren't working out. So I understand. And with my entire heart and soul I forgive you.

6:04 am, dawn.

Thanks for enjoying one more sunrise with me Iwa-chan. Even though my time is up, yours isn't. Live. Be happy. Stop counting the seconds. Fall in love. Go to the beach. Live in the moment. Climb a mountain. Eat pancakes at 2am, I don't care. Do whatever the hell you want to and know that I'm with you every step of the way. Live like everyday is your last day on Earth. I would give anything just to see you smile.

I've missed you Iwa-chan. 

So thank you, for going on this crazy adventure through all the memories, through all the heartache, thank you for dealing with me in all of my craziness. 

I love you. I love you, I love you, I love you. And even if I'm a star in the sky I'll never stop loving you.

Be well Iwaizumi.

Love,

Shittykawa~

6:05.

He stopped counting the seconds.

6:05.

He was forgiven.

6:05.

He made a promise that he would find happiness again.